Thursday, May 21, 2015
Saturday, January 17, 2015
why cant i do things right....
i dunno anymore...im missing the efficiency that everyone at work has.
i always felt that i cant do things right...
ysterday was yet another disaster..
how come im so slow..
i seem to have set my priorities in things wrongly..
after 1 yr at work...what have i learn?
well..its not nthing i suppose..but i felt useless.
i need to keep up.
pacing myself dun work
feeling so fail...
why/? why cant i do it right?
why am i so slow at this?
which is more important?
fck...am i really...suited for this?
PBP review is coming...what the heck am i suppose to write?
i dunno...
i always felt that i cant do things right...
ysterday was yet another disaster..
how come im so slow..
i seem to have set my priorities in things wrongly..
after 1 yr at work...what have i learn?
well..its not nthing i suppose..but i felt useless.
i need to keep up.
pacing myself dun work
feeling so fail...
why/? why cant i do it right?
why am i so slow at this?
which is more important?
fck...am i really...suited for this?
PBP review is coming...what the heck am i suppose to write?
i dunno...
Friday, September 5, 2014
fears
my team is slowly ignoring me....i dunno what to feel about this.
are they hating me cos of my incompetence? i have no idea, i stll have the innate fear they are plotting something against me.
my back might have alrdy have some knives already.
dunno...dun rly wanna care...but i knw i cant leave it alone.
are they hating me cos of my incompetence? i have no idea, i stll have the innate fear they are plotting something against me.
my back might have alrdy have some knives already.
dunno...dun rly wanna care...but i knw i cant leave it alone.
Friday, August 15, 2014
...
its situation like this that i really REALLY dread going to work...or to face my colleague. when the things u cant solve and they solve it. it gives a feeling of "you are incompetent"....the look on their faces tells it all....it shows...dammit it all.
Tuesday, March 25, 2014
things i aim to get: a new desktop PC
was searching through forums for a decent PC that can support proper gaming as well as a decent function as how a computer should be.
saw this DIY rig :
Intel i5-4570 3.2Ghz
Asrock B85M-PRO
DDR3 1600Mhz CL11 Crucial 8GB single
SAMSUNG 24X Retail
WD 1TB Blue
MSI GTX760 Twin Frozr Gaming 2GB
Seasonic 520W S12-II
CoolerMaster N200 USB3.0 (non-window)
$1120
although it is $1120 for jus the CPU build. i am quite satisfied with it. now im lacking:
2x 24" SAMSUNG LCD monitor
1x Razor Tarantula keyboard 2013 edition
1x Razor mousepad
1x wireless port.
total cost should be around 1.6K.
software:
- windows 7
- microsoft office
time to save up.
saw this DIY rig :
Intel i5-4570 3.2Ghz
Asrock B85M-PRO
DDR3 1600Mhz CL11 Crucial 8GB single
SAMSUNG 24X Retail
WD 1TB Blue
MSI GTX760 Twin Frozr Gaming 2GB
Seasonic 520W S12-II
CoolerMaster N200 USB3.0 (non-window)
$1120
although it is $1120 for jus the CPU build. i am quite satisfied with it. now im lacking:
2x 24" SAMSUNG LCD monitor
1x Razor Tarantula keyboard 2013 edition
1x Razor mousepad
1x wireless port.
total cost should be around 1.6K.
software:
- windows 7
- microsoft office
time to save up.
Saturday, January 25, 2014
something i have been thinking about after reading news about singapore.
Hmm.....if someone ask me what i wish for the future of Singapore, it will be "either the complete destruction of AWARE or a complete reform of what they are doing" empowering women =/= equality. Because what they are doing is an indirect legalization to restricting male rights. The overlooking of some type of offenses because "sucks to be you, ppl will believe me as im a girl than no one will believe you as you are a guy".
nowadays in modern day society, women are confused over where to draw the line. as technology gets more sophisticated, more influence of western cluturere resulting in more and more women are becoming independent, the lines for women rights become blurred. women are no longer the weaker sex as they claim themselves to be. they are highly calculative and manipulative because of the rights that they got and think they are entitled to that life-long warranty.
in Singapore, from a guy POV, the cardinal law is just unfair towards males. protecting the females is fine and all. but hey, arent you protecting them too much? it has come to a point where it become a loophole for women to make use of. guys are like slave for girls now. they are pampered too much. so much so that they are arrogant, and think of boys as nthing more than some manipulative living things. SG is a heaven for girls because of AWARE and hell for guys there is no organisation to protect them. read the laws if u got the time. disagree/agree i leave it up to you.
so long as they act the victim, guys will comfirm lose. i mean the first logic will be " how could you make her cry?" "what? she was against it but u did it anyway, u monster" examples could go on and on. maybe i read too much mangas and watch too much drama that show that being a man means we should never, in whatever circumstances, make a girl cry because that would be ungentlemanly and unmanly. well, as much as i love reading this type of stories. its complete bullshit to withstand the venomous words they throw at you. but sry, as much as i bottled all this up. when i snapped, dun go crying and say imma a big bully and shout at a girl. well u can go fck urself for that.
in conclusion, singapore society is fucked up in my point of view. but i will still live in this country because, its singapore. pros and cons. but i will live with it. but if there was ever a big red button that say "push for AWARE'S DESTRUCTION" i will push it without hesitation, hell, i might even push it afew more times.
nowadays in modern day society, women are confused over where to draw the line. as technology gets more sophisticated, more influence of western cluturere resulting in more and more women are becoming independent, the lines for women rights become blurred. women are no longer the weaker sex as they claim themselves to be. they are highly calculative and manipulative because of the rights that they got and think they are entitled to that life-long warranty.
in Singapore, from a guy POV, the cardinal law is just unfair towards males. protecting the females is fine and all. but hey, arent you protecting them too much? it has come to a point where it become a loophole for women to make use of. guys are like slave for girls now. they are pampered too much. so much so that they are arrogant, and think of boys as nthing more than some manipulative living things. SG is a heaven for girls because of AWARE and hell for guys there is no organisation to protect them. read the laws if u got the time. disagree/agree i leave it up to you.
so long as they act the victim, guys will comfirm lose. i mean the first logic will be " how could you make her cry?" "what? she was against it but u did it anyway, u monster" examples could go on and on. maybe i read too much mangas and watch too much drama that show that being a man means we should never, in whatever circumstances, make a girl cry because that would be ungentlemanly and unmanly. well, as much as i love reading this type of stories. its complete bullshit to withstand the venomous words they throw at you. but sry, as much as i bottled all this up. when i snapped, dun go crying and say imma a big bully and shout at a girl. well u can go fck urself for that.
in conclusion, singapore society is fucked up in my point of view. but i will still live in this country because, its singapore. pros and cons. but i will live with it. but if there was ever a big red button that say "push for AWARE'S DESTRUCTION" i will push it without hesitation, hell, i might even push it afew more times.
Monday, November 4, 2013
jap trip...finally
recently had a pretty dam rushed proposal to go japan in jan. nice.
it will be my first time :
- in japan
- experiencing winter as it really is
- booking a budget airline
- going free and easy to a country i always wanted to go but dun have the opportunity to.
- going overseas with just friends and no one else.
- with no tour guide
- having a real vacation in almost 5yrs.
there has been earlier plans for it but was always called off because i couldn't afford it...
i dunno wad push me towards this direction. but i have decided upon it.
i realise wad it means to travel.
since im travelling, what are the things i have to settle, the relevant paperworks and such.
i would nd to inform mindef that im travelling.
i would nd to apply leave nxt yr. because i cant apply now.
and i need to save up approx 2500sgd jus in case. and to exchange for japanese yen. may be aws shine upon me. i would really nd the saving.
seems like a far cry from the last payout from my previous workplace. hopefully, i can save more. ><
i need it for my jap trip. i have mentally plan out what to do...but its in ideal stage. lol my plans often crumbles when it applies to real life situations.
but all in all, i think its a good chance for me to go relax myself...my mum have been enjoying cruise trips alot of times haha...my dad..is also thinking of vacationing...just that there is no tour available for the place he wants to go...heh...
as for me i take it as a time where i reclaim the lost experience.
finally, this whole family of 4 have gone to japan.
my bro went japan for exchange
my parents went japan for vacation
where am i? im in poly studying and doing my fyp. fml. during all those times...i miss out on all those....im determined to get even with it.
but this trip might be really worth the while to travel. :D
it will be my first time :
- in japan
- experiencing winter as it really is
- booking a budget airline
- going free and easy to a country i always wanted to go but dun have the opportunity to.
- going overseas with just friends and no one else.
- with no tour guide
- having a real vacation in almost 5yrs.
there has been earlier plans for it but was always called off because i couldn't afford it...
i dunno wad push me towards this direction. but i have decided upon it.
i realise wad it means to travel.
since im travelling, what are the things i have to settle, the relevant paperworks and such.
i would nd to inform mindef that im travelling.
i would nd to apply leave nxt yr. because i cant apply now.
and i need to save up approx 2500sgd jus in case. and to exchange for japanese yen. may be aws shine upon me. i would really nd the saving.
seems like a far cry from the last payout from my previous workplace. hopefully, i can save more. ><
i need it for my jap trip. i have mentally plan out what to do...but its in ideal stage. lol my plans often crumbles when it applies to real life situations.
but all in all, i think its a good chance for me to go relax myself...my mum have been enjoying cruise trips alot of times haha...my dad..is also thinking of vacationing...just that there is no tour available for the place he wants to go...heh...
as for me i take it as a time where i reclaim the lost experience.
finally, this whole family of 4 have gone to japan.
my bro went japan for exchange
my parents went japan for vacation
where am i? im in poly studying and doing my fyp. fml. during all those times...i miss out on all those....im determined to get even with it.
but this trip might be really worth the while to travel. :D
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