BBQ todae

todae went to have BBQ organize by my cca...but then becos i gt some miscommunication wif my boss at work....i tot todae was a free day...(there is another story that is sorta link to this incident)then i on my way to my BBQ which is at pasir ris liao, my boss call to ask y i nver go work...i said i nver knew gt work since my boss nver reply my sms....then i said that if they really nd ppl i can rush down from pasir ris to work...but the time will be 7+ la...my boss say i crazy 2pm(at that time) was blazing hot go pr BBQ...but when i reach pr...it was quite breezy...and on top of it all...it rained!! so much for blazing hot wheather....lol...i reach the place where they are having BBQ....nt bad...really breezy...i felt so good enjoying the wind that is blowing against my hair...met a new friend who is...not new...met her somewhere b4...but still....dun really recognise her...she oso say the same to me...lol...this girl...very 'on' de...everything oso can play...talk to her oso very fun...her laughing oso gt skill de worh! 1st she will laugh silently...then she will inhale...then gt sound liao but the sound macham asthma attack...but all in all she very fun...thanks eric! for bringing her along. we oso camwhore alot of times...(think bored liao) but then thing is i think all the cam. low batt.....sad! but a majority of the pics where gt me inside de...is in grace's cam. grace! i wan the pics! lol...then 1/2 way thru the BBQ...i gt an sms from xm...who ask me hw is her character...thats...is very complicated thing to ask...and i dun like talking about it cos it will break relations...and now that i think abt it...if u wan to noe abt ur charcter...thru me...if u wan to noe the bad ones...feel free to look thru my blog's old post...u will noe...so i jus replied her of wad i thnk of her in a very summarised way that she is a nice and good girl, thrifty but sometimes hurt other ppl thru words and actions...hmm...is that answing to her qn? i wonder....but nvm....i replied her liao...and i gt no reply back....though i should be used to it liao...but i still feel abit pissed....lol...dunno y...cos its like some1...either u or me...nver put a fullstop behind the sentence then i like anticipating somethinig that wont come....for instance, her reply. in fact cos this is the way she does things....i dun even think she REMEMBERS my blog's url...much less coming to read my posts...i wonder wad make her send me jus a weird sms....issit some1 reproach her abt her character and attitude? or issit she likes some1 again and try to ask other ppl wads her personality is like so that she can see if she is pei wif him anot? most of the time...2nd option would always be out....but in her case...though i onli know her for 2 yrs...the 2nd option is included...right now...i have alrdy given up waiting for her to reply...reply when u like it...i too, have alot of things to do...tml gotta wake up early to go to sch to so assignment...nd to slp liao...chiaoz...might cont. tml....

jubeat! the new game of music~!

im jus so crazed abt this jubeat game now...lol...as u can see this is a game where u listen to the music beat and play by touching/pressing on the buttons! so fun but oso so ex...2 bucks/game...-.-...but but....so fun! below is my favourite song from jubeat :

天国と地獄 - Mutsuhiko Izumi

the other thing im oso very crazed abt is.....singing! lol yea! nver really go high b4...but ever since i have gone singing sessions wif my friends i am rather hw u say...addicted to it liao...lol...but singing i like to have less ppl to sing wif....1) not very noisy 2) ur turn comes again rather fast (hahaha!) 3) u can go crazy in the room and nobody is gonna care!
1 person singing is really EMO....but 2 ppl singing will hype things up...like my friend...i love going out wif her to sing...though only 2nd time...wif jus the 2 of us...we can rock the house yea! both of us always get high when we're singing...we sometimes dance...do all sorts of pattern
wanna noe whens my nxt singing session? its....nxt year! sound far right? but its not...its actually jus nxt friday which is 2/1/09! i singing wif my cousin. So...my xuan zhuan happy friend....when u wanna have a go again? jus hope u wont get tired of seeing my face again can liao...haha =D

and he got the all meaning of wad i wrote...wrong...-.-

after reading his post in reply to wad i have written...seems like some1 has misunderstand something le....that post highlights wad i dun like and u happen to do them....study this kind of things is ok de....wad u say really make me bewildered....is study really the only thing related? u say i play psp and laptop...yea true...i admit...and i have tried my best to decrease the amount of time i use liao....i would be more than willing to listen to u when u tell me face to face...rather than u posting something that is related to me and start critising me like ur my boss....cos ur not. ur some1 i can talk to...not som1 i report to...after i have written that post....i did reflect on wad i did...and as stated in my post...i know wad ur trying to tell me...really...if u think i have not decrease...then i oso have nthing to say.

so i now apologise to you for wad i said in that post...but i wont dlt that post...cos i wan u to know y i had said that....i admit some of the words i wrote is greatly offending, but i wan u to understand that those are words of anger...as for bullshit and stuff, this i gotta tell u....sometimes wad u say offends me alittle, but i did not say it...yes...u compare me with farhan and i appreciate the way u treated me is very different from the way u treat farhan...this i say thank you...

oh yea...i wanted to correct this paragraph of urs...(SINCE YOU FIND WHAT RUBBISH (NOTE: ASKING YOU TO STUDY, REMIND YOU TO STUDY SINCE NOBODY ASK YOU) IS DISGUSTING.. THEN I HAVE NOTHING TO SAY..) now as i have explain earlier...asking me to study is NOT disgusting...note that i felt disgusted by the way ppl order/tell me wad to do and the way u wrote on ur post is well...wad my impression is. ur publicly criticizing me for wad i did....couldn't u have a more private approach like in msn? imagine i use a loud-hailer and say ur stupid in the middle of orchard road...how will u feel? if that paragraph has indeed lead u to think like this...i will remove it...dun believe u can go check again...

sigh...if u had just talk to me like when u tell me hw addicting djmax3 can be...i did listen to u. so y cant u do the same for this as well?

and u are right...i still don't know u well....so wad u did may have another meaning to it i dunno...jus to add something i think u might notice about me...i have lesser torelence lvl than marcus and my emotions shows it on my face...

i hope that after u read this post...you'll understand...u can tell me about it in msn oso...no nd the hassle to write on blog...

personality quiz again! ^^

i was bored and reading other ppl's blog when i come across this simple yet rather accurate personality test..so i give it a try...haha...and guess wad? its so true! lol...here is the result->

Your result for The Quick & Painless ENNEAGRAM Test ...

4- the Individualist

you chose BY - your Enneagram type is FOUR (aka "The Romantic")

"I am unique"

Romantics have sensitive feelings and are warm and perceptive.

How to Get Along with Me

• Give me plenty of compliments. They mean a lot to me.
• Be a supportive friend or partner. Help me to learn to love and value myself.
• Respect me for my special gifts of intuition and vision.
• Though I don't always want to be cheered up when I'm feeling melancholy, I sometimes like to have someone lighten me up a little.
• Don't tell me I'm too sensitive or that I'm overreacting!

What I Like About Being a FOUR

• my ability to find meaning in life and to experience feeling at a deep level
• my ability to establish warm connections with people
• admiring what is noble, truthful, and beautiful in life
• my creativity, intuition, and sense of humor
• being unique and being seen as unique by others
• having aesthetic sensibilities
• being able to easily pick up the feelings of people around me

What's Hard About Being a FOUR

• experiencing dark moods of emptiness and despair
• feelings of self-hatred and shame; believing I don't deserve to be loved
• feeling guilty when I disappoint people
• feeling hurt or attacked when someone misundertands me
• expecting too much from myself and life
• fearing being abandoned
• obsessing over resentments
• longing for what I don't have

FOURs as Children Often

• have active imaginations: play creatively alone or organize playmates in original games
• are very sensitive
• feel that they don't fit in
• believe they are missing something that other people have
• attach themselves to idealized teachers, heroes, artists, etc.
• become antiauthoritarian or rebellious when criticized or not understood
• feel lonely or abandoned (perhaps as a result of a death or their parents' divorce)

FOURs as Parents

• help their children become who they really are
• support their children's creativity and originality
• are good at helping their children get in touch with their feelings
• are sometimes overly critical or overly protective
• are usually very good with children if not too self-absorbed

its so true man...cant believe im read my own personality description...hahah if u wanna try it out...heres the link :

http://www.helloquizzy.com/tests/the-quick-painless-enneagram-test

did i really let her go?

todae at around 6-7pm i was waiting for my bus when i receive an sms from xm...she told me that she will be going to china and catching the nite flight and is wishing me well...and take care(much like im the one going to china like that...heh!) but becos of my cock-eyeness, i miss out the words"taking the nite flight LATER" and was thinking she was jus telling me in advance so that i noe...at that moment....i really wanted to chiong cab to see her off...i was alrdy waiting for the cab when she replied me no nd...i had predicted that she will say that...so i reply im on the cab liao....lol...but then she replied saying she going in(departure hall) le..i see liao LL...dunno wad to say...but felt really really disappointed...and oso sad...cos before that i wanted to call her personally to wish her well....i mean...thats wad friends do right? wad she do? she hang up on me...then msg me say sms will do....wth!? hey...am i not fit to call u through the phone?...y i can only msg?....i felt SO restricted that time...wth?! was the qn i ask myself alot of times...though whenever i see ur msges...my heart would still beat 2x faster and i still felt uneasy, i still reply u...i treat u as a friend and cos i noe ur gonna fly off soon...i figure as a friend, i will be able to, at the very least, send u off...i wonder if this is how u treat your friend. seriously, sometimes ur msges to me make me feel that im being used by you, like some useful tool to get things, so u ask yourself , if u were in my shoes, hw will u feel? im not trying to be kei gao or anything but pls think about other ppl's feeling before u say anything

dammit...sound as if im writing a complain letter like that...initially i had tot that when i find a free time we mayb can go kbox together...but judging her charcter, i now HIGHLY doubt so....heh...ironically, she the one who taught me this phrase"pls dun jump to conclusions" so now im hoping that im not jumping but if im right then i wan to jump HIGH cos i was right about my earlier statement. to be honest, i am not even afraid that she find this out, cos she NVER come and visit my blog at all, though i had hope that she did so that she noe wad im feeling right now.

seriously, girls...just so you know...there is a limit to how much a guy can contain his anger, his saddness, his pain infront of you. sometimes a guy's smiling face doesn't represent his heart and that he is jus acting normal so as not to frightened u or make u worried, and if he do not get a chance to empty of of his emotions out, someday when he will jus lose control, thats when u know how to spell the word A-F-R-A-I-D.

gonna slp liao...nites! ahh....felt better after "saying" it all out....

something i suddenly thought....

heh...i cant even believe im saying this but when im going to school in the morning, something struck my mind, in life there are 2 events that all your friends will attend. one is your wedding and the other is...well...your funeral...heh heh heh....well...if u jus think about it...its true....normally becausein order to meet the demands of this expensive society that we live in, we dun really have the time or leisure to actually gather and talk to each other like when we're kids...so the only time where u can meet up u friends...new and old....is through big occasions like your wedding...well...the funeral is a different thing cos u can see them and they cant see you...lol...

lol...jus suddenly feel like typing it out...there is no reason behind this post...

...pls mind ur own business...

ARGH....felt like whacking some1....so guys...let me be random for awhile...this is to those who are reading my blog...but if HE is reading...then different story le...pls do wad my title says.

ppl always say...hao ren nan zhuo....or in english, its hard to be good. if its hard to be good...then dun be! jus so u noe....WHO are u to say me? WHO are u to lecture me? WHO are u to care wad i put in msn WHO are u to tell me that what im doing is not good? then let me tell u something....I dun like to be told wad to do by jus anyone in fact, i frigging hate it...dun put it such that like u know alot about me...and i know...wad u meant...but i DUN LIKE how u put it in words...let me tell u something la...dun think ur always right...think that wad u do is the right way...the right choice...ok? cos sometimes...if u noticed....wad u say are utter BULLSHIT....right...im blowing off steam now...i would prefer that YOU wont reply or comment on this post, i like my blog to be peaceful thank you. and even IF u do reply...i-wont-give-a-fuck.oh yea...if u felt that its contradicting of my actions to my msn nick, for ur information, i have CHANGED IT but i hope that YOU would stop telling me if wad i do or say is contradicting anot! its fucking irritating! in fact, i dun giv a shit about wad u say! get that? do wad i post have to comply with wad i do? i dunno about u but i live my life my own way,
wad i do will mostly CONTRADICTS wad i posts! y?? cos i am alive and words are dead, dun gt so overly concerned about the fact that ,say for example i post : i am very enthu for this subject when in actual fact i dun really like that subject! is contradicting!

...this is the 2nd time i had such resentment....after thinking about it, i think my bro is right...family members know each other best...my bro once during an argument, said that i espacially, HATE being controlled and wanted to do what i like...this, is 100% true....though i dun say it...i love my brother...thank you!=)