hate post...totally

ok...thats it..i had enough! i will officially said it that i :

*REALLY HATE agents(talkative bitches)
*hate loud brats
*hate idiotic teachers
*hate nonsensical talks and expects me to smile/nod in agreement
*hate to be left out
*hate to be suddenly pulled into an argument

and i wanna said it again! i HATE agents! so much that i actually developed a phobia from them! because they will try to corner u. and try to stop u. and once ur stopped. hoho, in their mind its like "1st stage cleared!" then will ask u some of their must-ask questions. THEN....they will tell u to go sit somewhere to talk...often, with the tempting phrases of "very quick one","abt 5mins only"...and OFTEN, those fcking talks will end up in MORE than 5mins or their promised time. and when i say talks i meant psycho-ing talks...and i hate that...IF I WANT TO BUY UR INSURANCE I WOULD HAVE GONE TO U INSTEAD RIGHT? if u wanna ask how deep i hate agents? i would if ur my friend and u happen to become an agent , i would still be ur friend...until u tried to sell me ur insurance.

reason why i hate brats is mainly cause of jubeating. brats = kids who are schooling and do not know how to play but act as if they know and shout and talk loudly as if they are pros...and try to act pro by trying to have a 'pro' stance while playing. they not only piss people off by their actions, they are very full of themselves. how to make them shut up? trash them in the things they are so proud of. done. did i mention that they have useless parents that dunno how to control their kids? parent these days really have a good way of teaching their kids huh...phailed.
Does it ever gets it to you when u are trying excellent a song? and some loud brat shout of something that distracts u(like leaning onto the machine too close), then 1 BLUE...u know how fcking SIAN u will feel?

1000 words by sweetbox

this is a very OLD song(as quoted from someone), but its still nice...i have it in my playlist...yea just scroll down hahaha....heres the lyrics :

1000 words
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I know that you're hiding things
Using gentle words to shelter me
Your words were like a dream
But dreams could never fool me
Not that easily

I acted so distant then
Didn't say goodbye before you left
But I was listening
You'll fight your battles far from me
Far too easily

"Save your tears 'cause I'll come back"
I could hear that you whispered as you walked through that door
But still I swore to hide the pain when I turn back the pages
Shouting might have been the answer
What if I'd cried my eyes out and begged you not to depart?
But now I'm not afraid to say what's in my heart

Though a thousand words
Have never been spoken
They'll fly to you
Crossing over the time and distance holding you
Suspended on silver wings

And a thousand words
One thousand confessions
Will cradle you
Making all of the pain you feel seem far away
They'll hold you forever

The dream isn't over yet
Though I often say I can forget
I still relive that day
You've been there with me all the way
I still hear you say

"Wait for me, I'll write you letters"
I could see how you stammered with your eyes to the floor
But still I swore to hide the doubt when I turn back the pages
Anger might have been the answer
What if I'd hung my head and said that I couldn't wait?
But now I'm strong enough to know it's not too late

'Cause a thousand words
Call out through the ages
They'll fly to you
Even though I can't see, I know they're reaching you
Suspended on silver wings

Oh, a thousand words
One thousand embraces
Will cradle you
Making all of your weary days seem far away
They'll hold you forever

Oh, a thousand words
Have never been spoken
They'll fly to you
They'll carry you home and back into my arms
Suspended on silver wings ohhhh

And a thousand words
Call out through the ages
They'll cradle you
Turning all of the lonely years to only days
They'll hold you forever

a thousand words.
~~~"~~~"~~~"~~~"~~~"~~~"~~~"~~~"~~~"~~~"~~~
nice song right~? but i gt another nice song coming up! its suteki da ne by rikki!

heres the lyrics to the song :

suteki da ne
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kaze ga yoseta kotoba ni oyoida kokoro
kumo ga hakobu ashita ni hazunda koe



tsuki ga yureru kagami ni furueta kokoro
hoshi ga nagare koboreta yawarakai namida


suteki da ne
futari te wo tori aruketa nara
ikitai yo
KIMI no machi ie ude no naka



sono mune
karada azuke
yoi ni magire
yumemiru



kaze wa tomari kotoba wa yasashii maboroshi
kumo wa yabure ashita wa tooku no koe


tsuki ga nijimu kagami wo nagareta kokoro
hoshi ga yurete koboreta kakusenai namida



suteki da ne
futari te wo tori aruketa nara
ikitai yo
KIMI no machi ie ude no naka



sono kao
sotto furete
asa ni tokeru
yumemiru
~~~"~~~"~~~"~~~"~~~"~~~"~~~
hahaha! as the same as the 1st song, this song can be found in my playlist as well!

if u realise it by now both are FFX song! gt afew more but i like these 2 the most! cause they really bring out the emotions in u...

fucked

yea...thats the word i can only say...for now...i dunno wad else i might say on this coming Thursday. friday, i reach sch at farking 11.30am+, its not early nor issit too late...since my FYP ends at 5pm. so i call my group leader when he is coming down to do the wiring since he knows the circuiting. and i dare not to do my own circuiting because i dunwan another short-circuit. so i call him, when he pick up the phone. he just woke up. ok...since its him, its considered his nature rather habit le...nvm. so i waited for him....till 12.30pm..go dabao lunch and eat at fyp room. then go back to room 1 to wait again....1pm+ i sms him where is he, from woodlands to school oso wont take that long right? he reply back say he 15-30mins will reach...ok. fair enough since he gt give a range.....then comes 3pm, still no signs of him. im tired, im pissed, im stressed. inside room 1, i couldnt understand his circuits, i cant do the things he wanted. even mr William oso dunno wad is he drawing. so i dulan i jus do my own wiring. then that groupmate of mine finally show his face at u all guess wad time? FARKING 4PM! jus to remind u all that my FYP ends at 5pm! then say he so late come in cos of report....i was thinking " report more impt than practicality?" to do a report u must 1st FINISH the hands-on project?...totally wtf..WTF i tell u. i alrdy sian1/2 le. then he bomb me with all the reasons why he wants it to be so...i gt so frustrated that i jus tell him " eh...dun confuse me, jus tell me wad to connect and where" cb...monday i will go fyp room at 8am to chiong my project. no more joke le....panel is nxt wk the rest of my class alrdy finish theirs le...why only us? issit because we slack too much? issit because we test too late? no matter. now is crunch time and we have less than 24hrs to fix up the wiring....if u think abt it...seriously! ><"

jubeat knit

the new version of jubeat is coming out! this is jubeat ver. 3.0

hahaha!!! YES! its coming out on 29th july according to my sources. its been a long time since i last resurfaced from the jubeat community. get ready to feel the aura or SIANSTER once again!!!! hmm...wonder wad new ign shld i call myself now...hmm....i gt 2 cards now...my princess card is sianster while my regular card is rand0mon...well with knit, i guess i can quit calling myself as a member of the ex singapore jubeat group, the mon group.

summary of today's event.

woke up at 7.30am todae...have a gleeful tot that "yes! im finally be able to go to sch early!" then i look at my warm pillow with the sound of the morning rain as an additional background sound effect, i succumb to the temptation of slping more for afew min. then nxt thing i knew i woke up and look at the clock...8.52am..this time my mind goes "oh...FUCK! not again!?" then hastily go wash up and left home. cab to sch was....well a near disaster. because i had met the enemy of every person who is in a rush and worst, alrdy late : TRAFFIC JAM. i jitao jus sian in the cab. eyes wanna slp. brain not working. only things thats working is my senses and the brain nervous system haha...anyway...manage to get to class at a suprising 'early' time of 9.30am did i tell u wad time was my lesson? its 9am-.-. anyway, after my 30min lesson. i gt practical...turn out to be viva >_>". then after the disastrous viva. its lunch and fyp all the way...i feel that i am actually doing something today. cos time really flies when im in my fyp room. tml i will do the wiring and hopefully they dun short circuit again or else my project will really burn.

hmm....these wk i realise im beginning to eat at home more...perhaps its cause i dun have anything to do at sch so i might as well go home...and also i now have my guitar(^_^) can practice at home.

*i shld not get lazy with practicing guitar

although i did say that but then i gt more impt things to worry abt than guitar practicing le...after all these ends bah...i wanna pass my exams and graduate from np. and try to slp early too ><

time

in a blink of an eye. this wk is ending yet again....coming to terms with that, this wk is also the last wk of my fyp. i really wish that me and my partner will be able to complete the whole thing. make it up and running....something which is suppose to be done last last week but then a rather unfortunate incident happened. our control box short-circuited and nearly caught fire. i burnt 2 of my fingers in the process....reason being i panic and try to pull the melting wires off the battery. oh well...good that i din die. but in any case our control box is screwed. but a good thing is that not everything is totally destroyed. at least our charge controller still works. if we are gonna make this project work...it gotta be this wk. i admit that in this fyp im not doing most of the brainstorming. but i feel like being the hands of my group leader. because i wanna do the practicals. anyways. this is a rushing yet relieving week for me...i dunno why.

guitar practicing is going well...im practicing almost daily(stopped yst and todae) at nite...learnt that wad im practicing is the D family not G family....haha...thanks edmond of the link u gave me todae. its very useful. and if all goes well...i may well be able to play my 1st song on guitar!! yay!!! its call stand by me by Ben E king. i like the song and i wanna play it...beside the song...i oso gt afew other songs that i wanna play but then i nd to master the basics 1st...

been pondering alot...whether shld i restart my driving lesson. i really shld. but then thinking of the cost jus scares me. if i were to go for TP again...it will be $160(TP)+ $220(practical lessons)+ $25(PDL extension)+ possible FTT retest = $500+...that is actually a scary amount for me now.

i shld be in control over my jubeating habit now....but then 9+6 = $15 on jubeating jus 2 days alone....need to stop le haha...at least till knit comes to sg.

wish me luck...lots of luck haha nites world

it was never ur fault

dun think too much my dear, its not ur fault. everything now lies with me....i am now a person wif crushed Morales and tend to think too much and way ahead of myself....dun think that everything is cause of you. you may hurt me in some ways yes. but what u have brought me is worth more than anything else....i know wad im going to say isn't gonna help much and its not gonna work since we are miles apart. but im still gonna say it " if ur hurt, tell me about it. if u need a shoulder to cry for, i will lend u mine." for i cant stand having a girl like u crying or sad. i may not be the strong and brave guy that will help u whack ppl. but i will be there with u when u needed someone. after all, wad are friends for? its not that im asking u to do alot for me....all i ask is for 1 thing in return...dun leave me.

haha...and besides, im used to emo-ing alone and picking myself up. so even if u are not there for me. it doesnt really affect me........somewhat.you are...after all, my lovely sunshine. always being bright and chase my gloomy clouds away. so dun blame urself for my undoings. i may not know why u are hurt, i may never know. but i do know that once u cry finish, emo finish. its time to move on and one of the ppl that will be taking u by the hand and telling u to move on will be me. =) so cheer up. u still gt a week left. go for it!