real tired...

yst when i slp...3.30 -4am bah...slpt like a log...woke up @9.30am(my lesson 9am)...wtf...but the strange thing is unlike last time i will panic...now is jus -look at time- "oh crap, im late again" i dun feel the panic, i feel that its a norm liao...i dun look forward to go sch...neither do i hate to go sch...then i go wait for bus then found out my ____ bro change my psp de memory stick but forgt change back...now i cant listen to the song i wan...dam fck up...and since its 9.30am...angie has long since touch down to sg le...replied my blog post as well...shock tio cos i din announce that i update my blog...i think its btr that i dun cos i dunwan uninvited attention...then some _______ read le then go post their comment abt my post on their blog. oh well...they can post wad they wan but pray that i dun see it...todae i sense the start of my emo-ing days again...im back to my old self...its a bad bad thing...dammit...

msn shout out: hopelessly in love? wrong, its hopeless at love...

i shld stop dreaming abt it and face reality, im doomed for eternal loneliness. though i had always hope some1 can prove me wrong..i pray that some1(not jus any1...it has to be a girl) will let me see the light...

at some point , i have seen myself from another person's POV and find that i am an attention seeker...if u wanna think it this way i cant stop u...i dun give a fuck abt wad ppl say abt me le...i am who i am, i love the freedom i have now...life with no restriction is an ideal lifestyle for me but impossible in reality...but i guess...i have at the very least, have the right to escape into my world once in a while...

ok...shall end my post here, once again welcome back to singapore angie...

this is wad i tot.....its myself...

in afew hrs time....actually...in abt 9hrs left, my dear friend will be returning to singapore, well...i know that i have told her that i will go airport to welcome her....thats cos i heard that no1 will be there to pick her up and as she 1st time going overseas....coming back cannot be so sian mah right....thats....what i thought, and stupid and selfish me always onli think of the plan where its himself onli....so yst she told me that she ask a friend to help her carry baggage....well...this seems to be a rather harmless term to tell me her plan...well...when i read abt it...i suddenly felt upset...haha...i was thinking : "am i not ur friend?" my auto ans : "impression not that deep la...u random friend nia...." and so i did not say anything but just acknowledge the fact =). so i ask her if he has a car...ans is " its his father de" btw this of hers can drive...so i kinda figure out y liao...and dun really felt THAT upset as the 1st time i heard it...cos i analyse liao i told myself, reasonable la....gt car mah...can drive...no nd flag taxi oso...then i tot abt the thing i told her abt....then mix reality and promise togther to find tht it clashed...gt car = give ride home = if follow i will be a fucking bright lamp post in the car....so y shld i even bother to go then? after all...she asked him, not me. no reason for me to there...im nthing impt to her anyway...hahaha(cold laughter)

*proceeds to go one corner emo again*

well...that just somehow sums up my thought over this situation...tml i will jus msn her a "welcome back =)"....think she will jus give me the ans> " :)[emote] with a ty " cant expect anything more than that le bah haocai? u mus know ur own limit. u-are-nthing-but-a-random-friend...must MUST remember that ok? dun always think that u talk to some1 1 or 2 days nia u like know them 2 yrs le...cannot ok?

im now like having dilemma on whether or not i shld go and "welcome" her...sure, she is not some big shot, but nonetheless she is my friend...but then she gt a friend that has the possibility to drive her home rather than me who has zero possibility of sending her home cos i have no cash and no car so i go there is be extra...cant be anything useful...

all that thinking cut short the time of her arrival to abt 8hrs left...

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jubeat:
promise myself not to play jubeat le cos i no money...well...broke that promise le...spent abt 6 bucks on that machine + 1 ddr which is 1.40...explains y i run out of money...i dun blame any1 but myself for this...pls dun come and tell me "u see la!" etc...etc...but i manage to clear my sigisg...woots...haha...

jubeat compy

ok..im going to slp soon so i will give a quick post haha...thats right as my title says...jubeat competition...i join the competition at lot1 zonex wif chaserz on friday when we were there training when the auntie come and say registration is now open i was playing and jus nod my head and later ask chaser for info haha...=P then on saturday....went to play afew round of jubeat b4 resting for the tournament...wanted the jubeat clock...but up against SG top players : chaserz, rin, kurobe...etc...i participate to get doorgift nia haha...not bad leh...a cube shape memo pad and a KONAMI pen...in the end my score was 266X not the last and def. not the 1st...then after the tournament we stay on to play more jubeat and have fun...gt really high that day haha...edit TRUE LOVE, YMCA, bass2bass, evans, we sang for rin and fuck him up when he play haha...totally hilarious....sg cafe ppl are truly a fun group haha...it was nice to hang out wif them...

todae...interesting haha

lol....todae i finally gt myself on the song: evans! must thank renegod for his advice haha...din noe play online oso can pass song...haha....todae wake up nearly late...>.<...reach sch late...reach classroom of cos will be later...-.-"...but once i reach the classroom, sat down, rest awhile(i chiong) then start up my com...jus as my com start up, the teacher said "ok? no problem? then thats all for todae...u may go le" i was like wtf...lol...todae i go for onli 1 fckin' lesson and ended like 30mins...-.- then i have to switch off my lappy again...then proceed to eat my lunch...gt pay yst...its miserable but its still money...haha....gotta save up for the genting trip in sept>.
okok gotta slp le...tml mus wake up at 8am and gt work at 5pm.....*sob* no choice...its for sept...T.T lol...nites all~! =3

empty vessels makes the most noise(theory cfmed)

as wad my title says....empty vessels empty does make the most noise...and that theory was proven when i saw one in action....its at lot1...at around 4-5pm+ bah...gt these grp of bengs(i assume, by their dress code) they are like snatching the jubeat machine wif me and sebas lol....cos they tap my machine(we are at zonex so they use the tapz card) while im playing...distracted me alittle though...none that matters...was abit pissed but then decided not to be an asshole and let the guy play. but todae im not gonna talk abt him lol...instead i will be talking abt his other "kaki" one big plump guy...looks tough....reminds me of a gorilla...and yea...talks like one oso....loud and rowdy...nnb...reaction so loud i can hear him from the fcking counter la...but can see he pro...use one hand play lvl 10 song...haha...not bad...for a gorilla(sry...thats my impression) then i dunno y....i suddenly recall the phrase "empty vessels empty does make the most noise" and compare to that guy...and i tot : hmm....hw true...lol...he is loud,looks stupid and has a big head that vibrates when u knock on it becos inside seems empty...talks alot when he plays....talks alot oso when he is NOT PLAYING...sadded...in the end me and sebas waited until like 5+ b4 they finally 'left'...cb play 2 round of jubeat nia they are back...wif smoke smell...clearly, to take a short smoke break b4 cont. again...shld see their ign...lol...then note it down...=P but it was oso arnd the time for us to head back to sch(have pt on mondae) so me and sebas go back after a short round of jubeat...lol...i gt irriated by these kind of ppl...zzzzzzzzzzz.....but then if i think abt it...im abit like that as well...hog the machine ;P BUT if others wanna use i will let them use...then take turn lor...ppl who chiong 2-5 credits at one go are rich fuckers....lol...

words...and how i define them as...

hmm....for this post...its a make up post for something i wanna write but forgtten abt it....

todae im going to talk abt hw i use these words and wads my own definition of them. =) (this is NOT a dictionary...but if u wanna learn it wif my definition, use it at ur own risk)

my 1st word will be IF...to me IF is like a imaginary action verb...here are afew following examples :
IF only this happens....
IF i press this...
IF only....
IF i hadnt done that
i will do it IF....
what IF....
now y do i say its imaginary? cos i often use the word IF when things done gt done wad i wanted....(e.g. if only i had come up wif a back up plan....i wont be so fuck up now)
the word IF is also act as a means of choice im suggesting to ppl....e.g. "wad if we do this? wad if we do that?" it give ppl...or rather , me. in this case. the question of wad will happen if i do this? whats the consequences of my actions?

nxt word: shall blog abt it when i thnk abt it lol-ed :P