Monday, December 29, 2008

BBQ todae

todae went to have BBQ organize by my cca...but then becos i gt some miscommunication wif my boss at work....i tot todae was a free day...(there is another story that is sorta link to this incident)then i on my way to my BBQ which is at pasir ris liao, my boss call to ask y i nver go work...i said i nver knew gt work since my boss nver reply my sms....then i said that if they really nd ppl i can rush down from pasir ris to work...but the time will be 7+ la...my boss say i crazy 2pm(at that time) was blazing hot go pr BBQ...but when i reach pr...it was quite breezy...and on top of it all...it rained!! so much for blazing hot wheather....lol...i reach the place where they are having BBQ....nt bad...really breezy...i felt so good enjoying the wind that is blowing against my hair...met a new friend who is...not new...met her somewhere b4...but still....dun really recognise her...she oso say the same to me...lol...this girl...very 'on' de...everything oso can play...talk to her oso very fun...her laughing oso gt skill de worh! 1st she will laugh silently...then she will inhale...then gt sound liao but the sound macham asthma attack...but all in all she very fun...thanks eric! for bringing her along. we oso camwhore alot of times...(think bored liao) but then thing is i think all the cam. low batt.....sad! but a majority of the pics where gt me inside de...is in grace's cam. grace! i wan the pics! lol...then 1/2 way thru the BBQ...i gt an sms from xm...who ask me hw is her character...thats...is very complicated thing to ask...and i dun like talking about it cos it will break relations...and now that i think abt it...if u wan to noe abt ur charcter...thru me...if u wan to noe the bad ones...feel free to look thru my blog's old post...u will noe...so i jus replied her of wad i thnk of her in a very summarised way that she is a nice and good girl, thrifty but sometimes hurt other ppl thru words and actions...hmm...is that answing to her qn? i wonder....but nvm....i replied her liao...and i gt no reply back....though i should be used to it liao...but i still feel abit pissed....lol...dunno y...cos its like some1...either u or me...nver put a fullstop behind the sentence then i like anticipating somethinig that wont come....for instance, her reply. in fact cos this is the way she does things....i dun even think she REMEMBERS my blog's url...much less coming to read my posts...i wonder wad make her send me jus a weird sms....issit some1 reproach her abt her character and attitude? or issit she likes some1 again and try to ask other ppl wads her personality is like so that she can see if she is pei wif him anot? most of the time...2nd option would always be out....but in her case...though i onli know her for 2 yrs...the 2nd option is included...right now...i have alrdy given up waiting for her to reply...reply when u like it...i too, have alot of things to do...tml gotta wake up early to go to sch to so assignment...nd to slp liao...chiaoz...might cont. tml....

jubeat! the new game of music~!

im jus so crazed abt this jubeat game now...lol...as u can see this is a game where u listen to the music beat and play by touching/pressing on the buttons! so fun but oso so ex...2 bucks/game...-.-...but but....so fun! below is my favourite song from jubeat :


天国と地獄 - Mutsuhiko Izumi

the other thing im oso very crazed abt is.....singing! lol yea! nver really go high b4...but ever since i have gone singing sessions wif my friends i am rather hw u say...addicted to it liao...lol...but singing i like to have less ppl to sing wif....1) not very noisy 2) ur turn comes again rather fast (hahaha!) 3) u can go crazy in the room and nobody is gonna care!
1 person singing is really EMO....but 2 ppl singing will hype things up...like my friend...i love going out wif her to sing...though only 2nd time...wif jus the 2 of us...we can rock the house yea! both of us always get high when we're singing...we sometimes dance...do all sorts of pattern
wanna noe whens my nxt singing session? its....nxt year! sound far right? but its not...its actually jus nxt friday which is 2/1/09! i singing wif my cousin. So...my xuan zhuan happy friend....when u wanna have a go again? jus hope u wont get tired of seeing my face again can liao...haha =D

Monday, December 1, 2008

and he got the all meaning of wad i wrote...wrong...-.-

after reading his post in reply to wad i have written...seems like some1 has misunderstand something le....that post highlights wad i dun like and u happen to do them....study this kind of things is ok de....wad u say really make me bewildered....is study really the only thing related? u say i play psp and laptop...yea true...i admit...and i have tried my best to decrease the amount of time i use liao....i would be more than willing to listen to u when u tell me face to face...rather than u posting something that is related to me and start critising me like ur my boss....cos ur not. ur some1 i can talk to...not som1 i report to...after i have written that post....i did reflect on wad i did...and as stated in my post...i know wad ur trying to tell me...really...if u think i have not decrease...then i oso have nthing to say.

so i now apologise to you for wad i said in that post...but i wont dlt that post...cos i wan u to know y i had said that....i admit some of the words i wrote is greatly offending, but i wan u to understand that those are words of anger...as for bullshit and stuff, this i gotta tell u....sometimes wad u say offends me alittle, but i did not say it...yes...u compare me with farhan and i appreciate the way u treated me is very different from the way u treat farhan...this i say thank you...

oh yea...i wanted to correct this paragraph of urs...(SINCE YOU FIND WHAT RUBBISH (NOTE: ASKING YOU TO STUDY, REMIND YOU TO STUDY SINCE NOBODY ASK YOU) IS DISGUSTING.. THEN I HAVE NOTHING TO SAY..) now as i have explain earlier...asking me to study is NOT disgusting...note that i felt disgusted by the way ppl order/tell me wad to do and the way u wrote on ur post is well...wad my impression is. ur publicly criticizing me for wad i did....couldn't u have a more private approach like in msn? imagine i use a loud-hailer and say ur stupid in the middle of orchard road...how will u feel? if that paragraph has indeed lead u to think like this...i will remove it...dun believe u can go check again...

sigh...if u had just talk to me like when u tell me hw addicting djmax3 can be...i did listen to u. so y cant u do the same for this as well?

and u are right...i still don't know u well....so wad u did may have another meaning to it i dunno...jus to add something i think u might notice about me...i have lesser torelence lvl than marcus and my emotions shows it on my face...

i hope that after u read this post...you'll understand...u can tell me about it in msn oso...no nd the hassle to write on blog...

Saturday, November 29, 2008

personality quiz again! ^^

i was bored and reading other ppl's blog when i come across this simple yet rather accurate personality test..so i give it a try...haha...and guess wad? its so true! lol...here is the result->

Your result for The Quick & Painless ENNEAGRAM Test ...

4- the Individualist


you chose BY - your Enneagram type is FOUR (aka "The Romantic")

"I am unique"

Romantics have sensitive feelings and are warm and perceptive.

How to Get Along with Me

  • Give me plenty of compliments. They mean a lot to me.
  • Be a supportive friend or partner. Help me to learn to love and value myself.
  • Respect me for my special gifts of intuition and vision.
  • Though I don't always want to be cheered up when I'm feeling melancholy, I sometimes like to have someone lighten me up a little.
  • Don't tell me I'm too sensitive or that I'm overreacting!

What I Like About Being a FOUR

  • my ability to find meaning in life and to experience feeling at a deep level
  • my ability to establish warm connections with people
  • admiring what is noble, truthful, and beautiful in life
  • my creativity, intuition, and sense of humor
  • being unique and being seen as unique by others
  • having aesthetic sensibilities
  • being able to easily pick up the feelings of people around me

What's Hard About Being a FOUR

  • experiencing dark moods of emptiness and despair
  • feelings of self-hatred and shame; believing I don't deserve to be loved
  • feeling guilty when I disappoint people
  • feeling hurt or attacked when someone misundertands me
  • expecting too much from myself and life
  • fearing being abandoned
  • obsessing over resentments
  • longing for what I don't have

FOURs as Children Often

  • have active imaginations: play creatively alone or organize playmates in original games
  • are very sensitive
  • feel that they don't fit in
  • believe they are missing something that other people have
  • attach themselves to idealized teachers, heroes, artists, etc.
  • become antiauthoritarian or rebellious when criticized or not understood
  • feel lonely or abandoned (perhaps as a result of a death or their parents' divorce)

FOURs as Parents

  • help their children become who they really are
  • support their children's creativity and originality
  • are good at helping their children get in touch with their feelings
  • are sometimes overly critical or overly protective
  • are usually very good with children if not too self-absorbed

its so true man...cant believe im read my own personality description...hahah if u wanna try it out...heres the link :

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

did i really let her go?

todae at around 6-7pm i was waiting for my bus when i receive an sms from xm...she told me that she will be going to china and catching the nite flight and is wishing me well...and take care(much like im the one going to china like that...heh!) but becos of my cock-eyeness, i miss out the words"taking the nite flight LATER" and was thinking she was jus telling me in advance so that i noe...at that moment....i really wanted to chiong cab to see her off...i was alrdy waiting for the cab when she replied me no nd...i had predicted that she will say that...so i reply im on the cab liao....lol...but then she replied saying she going in(departure hall) le..i see liao LL...dunno wad to say...but felt really really disappointed...and oso sad...cos before that i wanted to call her personally to wish her well....i mean...thats wad friends do right? wad she do? she hang up on me...then msg me say sms will do....wth!? hey...am i not fit to call u through the phone?...y i can only msg?....i felt SO restricted that time...wth?! was the qn i ask myself alot of times...though whenever i see ur msges...my heart would still beat 2x faster and i still felt uneasy, i still reply u...i treat u as a friend and cos i noe ur gonna fly off soon...i figure as a friend, i will be able to, at the very least, send u off...i wonder if this is how u treat your friend. seriously, sometimes ur msges to me make me feel that im being used by you, like some useful tool to get things, so u ask yourself , if u were in my shoes, hw will u feel? im not trying to be kei gao or anything but pls think about other ppl's feeling before u say anything

dammit...sound as if im writing a complain letter like that...initially i had tot that when i find a free time we mayb can go kbox together...but judging her charcter, i now HIGHLY doubt so....heh...ironically, she the one who taught me this phrase"pls dun jump to conclusions" so now im hoping that im not jumping but if im right then i wan to jump HIGH cos i was right about my earlier statement. to be honest, i am not even afraid that she find this out, cos she NVER come and visit my blog at all, though i had hope that she did so that she noe wad im feeling right now.

seriously, girls...just so you know...there is a limit to how much a guy can contain his anger, his saddness, his pain infront of you. sometimes a guy's smiling face doesn't represent his heart and that he is jus acting normal so as not to frightened u or make u worried, and if he do not get a chance to empty of of his emotions out, someday when he will jus lose control, thats when u know how to spell the word A-F-R-A-I-D.

gonna slp liao...nites! ahh....felt better after "saying" it all out....

something i suddenly thought....

heh...i cant even believe im saying this but when im going to school in the morning, something struck my mind, in life there are 2 events that all your friends will attend. one is your wedding and the other is...well...your funeral...heh heh heh....well...if u jus think about it...its true....normally becausein order to meet the demands of this expensive society that we live in, we dun really have the time or leisure to actually gather and talk to each other like when we're kids...so the only time where u can meet up u friends...new and old....is through big occasions like your wedding...well...the funeral is a different thing cos u can see them and they cant see you...lol...

lol...jus suddenly feel like typing it out...there is no reason behind this post...

Sunday, November 23, 2008

...pls mind ur own business...

ARGH....felt like whacking some1....so guys...let me be random for awhile...this is to those who are reading my blog...but if HE is reading...then different story le...pls do wad my title says.

ppl always say...hao ren nan zhuo....or in english, its hard to be good. if its hard to be good...then dun be! jus so u noe....WHO are u to say me? WHO are u to lecture me? WHO are u to care wad i put in msn WHO are u to tell me that what im doing is not good? then let me tell u something....I dun like to be told wad to do by jus anyone in fact, i frigging hate it...dun put it such that like u know alot about me...and i know...wad u meant...but i DUN LIKE how u put it in words...let me tell u something la...dun think ur always right...think that wad u do is the right way...the right choice...ok? cos sometimes...if u noticed....wad u say are utter BULLSHIT....right...im blowing off steam now...i would prefer that YOU wont reply or comment on this post, i like my blog to be peaceful thank you. and even IF u do reply...i-wont-give-a-fuck.oh yea...if u felt that its contradicting of my actions to my msn nick, for ur information, i have CHANGED IT but i hope that YOU would stop telling me if wad i do or say is contradicting anot! its fucking irritating! in fact, i dun giv a shit about wad u say! get that? do wad i post have to comply with wad i do? i dunno about u but i live my life my own way,
wad i do will mostly CONTRADICTS wad i posts! y?? cos i am alive and words are dead, dun gt so overly concerned about the fact that ,say for example i post : i am very enthu for this subject when in actual fact i dun really like that subject! is contradicting!

...this is the 2nd time i had such resentment....after thinking about it, i think my bro is right...family members know each other best...my bro once during an argument, said that i espacially, HATE being controlled and wanted to do what i like...this, is 100% true....though i dun say it...i love my brother...thank you!=)

lol...i jus cant reject this tag...

lol...i jus cant refuse to write this out cos i was tagged to write by my fav. cousin xD...here goes:

The rules & regulations:
1) Each player of this game starts off with 10 weird things/habits/little known facts about yourself.
2) People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 10 weird things/habits/little know facts as well as state this rule clearly
3) At the end, you need to choose 10 people to be tagged & list their names
4) No tag back.

alright...here goes...for those who dunno me well...this might just be an intro to u about me...girls...if u feel weird or disgusted...feel free to leave or close this window

1) i like to tie my hair and untie it by pulling out again....
2) show it when i find that u are lame (typical expression : -.-)
3) spoke little but think alot
4) what goes out from my mouth doesn't always tally with my brain and my heart
5) is afraid to cause trouble
6) fantasize about having gf
7) have recurring effect of regrets
8) weird actions during to sudden memory flashbacks
9) what i my facial expression look like might not be really represent what i tot about u
10) gets piss off when i refuse to give something to someone and he/she keep pressing me for it

the ten lucky winners!
angeline( haha...u are lucky no. 1) =P
phyllis
adeline
joel cheong
hui jing
wen xia
pei rong
charmaine
brandon
jin cai
yi yuan

[P.S] this is for the 10 lucky ppl! those whose name are not listed are NOT to copy this to his/her blog for posting....any request to post can be asked though the Cbox

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

i never feel like singing this much

lol...im the type that dun like to like to sing thru the mic...but after hearing tong hua...and MLTR's songs....i really feels like singing...haha...now still have wu ding...haha...i slow sia...now then craze kbox....xD

short post...ha! cya!

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

in china blogging...omg...

i cant believe it...but im blogging...chatting...in a village sch in china right now...we are suppose to upgrade the school field to a cement ground and be the kids primary school teachers....yst being the 1st day was very fun! the class was managable...and nthing really happen....todae was worst....cos todae....the class was a total mess....seems like hazel , kl and azri finish wad they wan to teach liao...i heard from azri that they are losing control le...so when i have the time i take a look....some boy was crying becos of a fight...and 1 hyperactive boy was holding the books that are suppose to giv out to them....and sat on the books....those who who noe me , will def. noe that i do not torelate any nonsense and so...i use the "cane" and smack the table LOUD....and told that bugger...that this is his last chance....he see liao or hear liao...oso lan lan....then giv kl back the books...in which kl said in a hushed up voice..."relax la" and in turn i told hazel" ...sometimes...u have to be stern to control them" after the whack....the class stop chattering and theres silence...yes...its awkward...but its nessesary...i feel bad after using the rod oso...i dun like to scold them too...cos they can sometimes be very ting hwa....haiz..mayb tml i will say sorry for scaring them but at the same time remind them that i can be very kind to u and oso can be very mean to u...and i dun wan that...alright? so do i have ur cooperation? if u do, say HAO!...hahha....dunno that will work anot...mayb the boy i threaten jus now go complain to his mom or something...or wanted to kill me...haha...i dunno...but i noe i did nthing wrong....
i may be writing another post later at nite or even tml...see how it goes lor...haha...personally...i like our group de efficiency...haha...

Sunday, September 7, 2008

-afk- =D

ok guys...

i will be gone for 2 weeks ranging from :

8 sept(tml!!!) ~ 21 sept

i be going to china!!!!
so cya!
haha....

Wednesday, August 13, 2008

the silent and peaceful night

yes...today rain rather heavily today...and the day has been cooling...by 1am...the roads have become unusually quiet...such peacefulness right now...its 2am...and its still very silent...i can hear my clock's ticking sound....such feeling is very hard to describe...anyway...i think i will write abt todae's event bah....

today is the day i attended my 1st basic theory lesson...i enrolled at BBDC and i booked my lessons todae and tml. well...thats for the lessons...after that i dun have to worry anymore...cos i jus have to pass my evaulation and then the Basic Theory Test...after that then i worry abt my FTT....so anyways...i woke up at around 11.40am..then rmb i book my lesson at 12.20pm...dammit...gotta rush...i wash up and ate a hasty breakfast comprises of 2 slice of bread and rush off to my lesson le...i reach JUST in time the time? yeap...12.20pm exact...lol...the lesson was relatively normal as the instructor noe how to prevent the class from slping...haha....make some jokes here and there and ask us abit of qn. i found out that the instructor was in my group...but he is in charge or motorcycle...haiz..sad...haha...anyway...the lesson ended at 2pm...while i was going down...i saw my ex-tuition classmate , rebecca . its been a long time since i saw her...so i ask her if she wans to join me for lunch...but she said her friend coming her hse later so she gotta rush...so...sad lor...say bye to her and i go makan...lol...after makan...i went home...and start playing cabal...dammit...i shld really discipline myself not to play le...exams...exams are coming...haiz...anyway...so i play until i sian liao...then i stop...and start to read manga...its a daily routine of mine...hehe...lol...oh yea...if u like to noe i can tell u wad one week means to me

monday - download code geass R2
tuesday - slack...check out for any new manga chapters
wednesday - same...gt practical lessons...so will abit tired...
thursday - download bleach
friday - read bleach , naruto , one piece mangas
sat -slack...
sun - prep for the nxt week

lol...abit no life right...lol....but im trying to make it interesting...haha

so sian...hope i can gt my driving license soon cos i wan to drive thru the quiet s'pore road at nite...the peace...the silence...then ur hearing some relaxing musics from the radio...*bliss*
kk...gotta slp le..tml mayb i goin to sch to study...so till my nxt update...nites =D

something interesting i found in friendster...XD

i found some interesting thing in friendster...share it out...mayb u can take it and post it on ur blog for fun...XD

here goes :

the title : does your name fit on u??

chuah hao cai

•C: good kisser
•H: stick to one
•U: is loved by everyone
•A: hot
•H: stick to one

•H: stick to one
•A: hot
•O: has one of the best personalities ever

•C: good kisser
•A: hot
•I: is really sweet

OR

philip

•P: popular with all types of people
•H: stick to one
•I: is really sweet
•L: is a very good kisser
•I: is really sweet
•P: popular with all types of people
______________________________
•A: hot
•B: loves people and sex
•C: good kisser
•D: can kick ur butt
•E: has gorgeous eyes
•F: loves people wild and crazy adore you
•G: very outgoing
•H: stick to one
•I: is really sweet
•J: is very sexual
•K: crazy
•L: is a very good kisser
•M: Makes dating fun
•N: loves to laugh and smile
•O: has one of the best personalities ever
•P: popular with all types of people
•Q: a hypocrite
•R: funny
•S: makes people laugh
•T: smile to die for
•U: is loved by everyone
•V: not judgmental
•W: very broad minded
•X: never let people tell you what to do
•Y: is loved by everyone
•Z: can be funny and dumb at times

haha...hope u have fun with the alphabets pple!! =D

Sunday, August 10, 2008

quiz to kill time..

1) Where is the person you want most?
-in her house...maybe slping right now...
2) Where will you be 2 hours from now?

-later ar....in dreamlands mayb...if i can gt to slp...
3) Did your last kiss mean anything?

-well...my lips are still virgin...so...if u mean a girl...no...if u mean my laptop...yes cos its safe when i found it...(n i kiss it infront of every1 in the canteen...
4) Does your ex miss you?

-lol...if my ex miss me...y we break up in the 1st place?
5)Does anyone loves you?

-my family i guess...
6) Can you make yourself sneeze?

-eh...no...and its stupid for me to try...haha...
7) What are you doing tomorrow?

-wake up revise awhile then chiong work at 13.30
8) Are you easily confused?
-depends.
9) Do you think you would make a good boyfriend/girlfriend?
-Nope im a boring person.
10) Where were you at 9am this morning?

-somewhere in dream country airport on return flight back to reality.
11) Do you fall for people easily?

-no...i only fall for the girl AFTER we are together
12) Everything happens for a reason?

-yeap
13) What does your last text message read?

-u holiday going to work mah?(self note: LOL!)
14) What are you listening to right now?

-some national day songs+ sekirei's OP and ED song
15) How has the week been?

-extremely busy...but thank god everything is done...=)
16) Is there something you wish you could tell someone but can't?

-Yeah.
17) Would you kiss the last person you kissed again ?

-i wish i could...but i miss the chance to do so...=(
18) Does the last person you shared a bed with mean anything to you?

-define sharing a bed...and yes she is everything to me...and she still is...
19) Do you sleep with the TV on?

-i lose interest in TV ever since there's something call the internet
20) Are you too forgiving?

-it depends on wad u do that wans me to forgive...

21) Have you ever wanted to be a fire fighter?

-y would i want to be?
22) Who do you miss?

-my ex , and the memories that we had...perhaps...other than that...nthing le
23) What was the last thing you put in your mouth?

-pizza~!=D
24) Have you signed in AIM?

-havent
25) If you could have any car what would it be?

-toyota or honda or hyundai
26) What are you stressed out about?

-SOM and FM...oh and the final assesment on moday...ARGH~!
27) Do you have anything in your pockets right now?

-No pocket
28) How many windows are open on your computer

-1 haha...
29) In the past week have you gotten sick?

-if u dun count my old illness(block nose)...nope
30) In the past week have you gotten a hair cut ?

-in the past 1 mth...yea...regret it..cos i rmb i am cosplaying some1 wif long hair...=.=
31) How many profile views do you have?

-dunno and dun care
32) Who was your last call from?

-KL
33) What can't you wait for?

-the exams to be over and the YEP oversea trip to china!!
34) What do you do with most of your time?

-playing cabal , listening to songs and chatting thru msn...=D
35) How many clothes do you have in your closet?

-i dunno...would not lost count but jus lazy to do it
36) On a scale of 1-10 How good is life?

-8.5
37) Will you and your ex ever get back together?

-No...(though i really hope she will giv me a 2nd chance...but i noe thats impossible)
38) Do you think you'll be a good Mother/Father?

-lol...i think so...but lets not think too far...let me find my future wife 1st ok? =D
39) Are you high-maintainence?

-im not a robot and neither do i spend my money like theres no tml...so i guess its a no..
40) Are you happy with the way life is now?

-hmm...im not hysterical yet and definately not suicidal. so i guess i can say that mine is alright bah...

(>Okay i was way too bored thus i did a quiz!)

Tuesday, August 5, 2008

intro to myself

hi , lol...i think up until now even from the 1st post i have written i have not...really describe about myself...now....as im bo-liaoing...i might as well write it out yea? =D

i will try my best to keep it as simple as possible.

i am :
-an introvert
-silent
-lame
-friendly only to those whom i know
-soft-spoken
-a loner

i love :
-white chocolate
-my family
-someone dear to me
-my wife(future)[ ain't that obvious =D]
-online games
-exciting activites
-strawberry milk
-imaginations
-strategies
-practicals

i like :
-ppl who are honest(who doesn't?)
-freedom
-to solve psychological problems
-to predict ur next moves
-to visualise
-to imagine
-to create something that i like
-swords
-guns(only afew)
-ppl who dun ask too much
-online games
-mangas(ONLY japanese and korean manga)
-the only localise manga i collected is TCZ(The Celestial Zone)
-roller-blading
-cycling
-shooting
-archery(wanna try if i have the time)
-ppl who have honest feelings
-ppl do not have any desire to cheat/brought anything harmful to any1
-ppl who noe wad they are talking abt
-ppl who are clear minded
-ppl who can honour promises

i do not like :
-to be order around
-to be treated like a fool
-to be kept out
-last minutes
-to be late(rather contradicting but yes..i hate being late)
-insulted(then again...who would wan to be insulted?)

i hate people :
-who are liars
-who are dishonest
-who abuse trust
-who expoilt ppl's characters for their own benefit
-who always think that he is right
-who is narrow minded
-who is a traitor
-who is a backstabber
-who uses money to gt everything done
-who is too perverted
-who is too psychotic
-who loves to say good words
-that lecture me for no reason
-who accuses me
-who are bullies
-who dunno how to listen to instructions
-and i hate the fact that something is wrong and nobody lets me know...

these are jus some of my likes and dislikes....hope that after reading them u will noe y i gt piss off...its one of the reasons...=D

Wednesday, July 30, 2008

a post i dunno wad title to write

illusions...or real illusions ;
hidden in an illusion is the real illusion ;
from one illusion will sprout another illusion.
hidden in truth lie lies ;
hidden in lies hides the truth.

from kateikyoushi hitman reborn ; quotation from mukuro of episode 93

i find this very interesting...i have this qns racing in my mind now...
how many facades do u have?
do u fake ur personality to every1?
how many times have u deceive others in order prevent them from knowing you that well?
how many protective covers do u have?
when im talking to you...are u faking ur personality?
how do i noe if u are telling to the truth?

i believe every1 man have alot of faces....sometimes...u hear some1 says : "he is a 2-faced guy"...this...technically....is not true...he has jus shown 2 sides of him to the public...one side good, and one side evil....BUT....a man is capable to having more than jus 2 sides of him...greed...lust...anger...displeasure...excitement....all this are the sides of a man...you may think those are feelings...but those may be the side of him that he dun wan u to noe...so i wonder sometimes....who am i talking to? is the some1 im talking to the true u? or u are just putting up a frontal facade...or a fake jus to...how to say...make me feel at ease? ever heard of those ppl that suffers from multi-personality? its maybe a result or over multi-tasking or to have too much other personality other his or her own "main" personality...those...2 me...are those who have lose control over their many faces and making those faces(personality) control the them instead.

i admit i myself oso have different faces....depending on the situation....talking to bastards , i will have a face that will somehow counteracts the situation...talking to friends...well...i normally dun have a fake in place...but i do take precautions...i do wonder....wad will happen to u if u trust someone too much....alot of trust will result in betrayal ; too much betrayal will result in loss of trust...think abt it...who u talk to might not be the true him/her u are talking to.

rmb...wad hidden in truth lie lies...hidden in lies hides the truth...so how are u gonna noe if he/she is saying the truth? use ur instinct and feeling....i believe a woman's intuition is very accurate(thats y i cant beat them in guessing games)....though for us guys is less accurate but nonetheless u still possess this skill.... so use it wisely and judge carefully...deceits are everywhere...

so here is my last msg for the nite:
u may regard this as crap
but wad lies in these crap are the truth
wad lies in those truths are crap...
craps or truth is up to you
u may choose to disregard
u may choose to think about
u may try to have multiple faces(not encourage)
its all up to u to believe or not...

nites...

a very meaningful song

this is a very old song....but its very nice cos the song's lyric is very meaningful and accurate....to me...it accurately states the feelings of one person who is being dumped...

theres 3 versions,

this is the original version :
http://www.imeem.com/renthawa/music/2hywAMgQ/kyu_sakamoto_sukiyaki_japanese_love_song/

this is the lyrics for the original version :

ue o muite arukou
namida ga kobore naiyouni
omoidasu harunohi
hitoribotchi no yoru
ue o muite arukou
nijinda hosi o kazoete
omoidasu natsunohi
hitoribotchi no yoru
shiawase wa kumo no ueni
shiawase wa sora no ueni
ue o muite arukou
namida ga kobore naiyouni
nakinagara aruku
hitoribotchi no yoru
(whistling)
omoidasu akinohi
hitoribotchi no yoru
kanashimi wa hosino kageni
kanashimi wa tsukino kageni
ue o muite arukou
namida ga kobore naiyouni
nakinagara aruku
hitoribotchi no yoru(2x)
(whistling)

and here is the english version :
http://www.imeem.com/qreatica/music/TYpPYi0w/4_pm_sukiyaki/

and here are the lyrics for the english version:
Sukiyaki

It's all because of you
I'm feeling sad and blue
you went away
Now my life is just a rainy day and
I love you so
How much you'll never know
you've gone away and left me lonely.
Untouchable memories
seem to keep haunting me
our love so true,
that once turned all my gray skies blue
but you disappeared,
now my eyes are filled with tears
and I'm wishing you were here with me
soaked with love all my thoughts of you
now that you're gone
I just don't know what to do

if only you were here,
you'd wash away my tears
the sun would shine,
once again you'll be mine all mine
but in reality,
you and I will never be
cos you took your love away from me

If only you were here,
you'd wash away my tears
the sun would shine,
once again you'll be mine all mine
but in reality,
you and I will never be
cos you took your love away from me.
Oh baby you took your love away from me

this song brings back memories of the time my ex left me...the exact feeling of sadness , pain , loneliness...but its a great song....truly great....so relax and chill out while listening bah...=D

Thursday, July 10, 2008

my sudden inspirations

lol...this is some of my sudden inspirational sentences...they dun always come up so i record them in my hp....

time and space

time....a mystical yet common item , if one could harness the control of time then he will have tremendous power 2 rewrite , undo and change his or the world's future and i assume that one can only travel back into the past and not the future.

though timeshift is a fiction now...but when someone manage to uncover the mysteries of time , time travel and teleportations will then be possible. one clue in uncovering the mysteries is by studying space rifts or the black holes and worm holes

will update again...=D

loyalty

this is just a sudden inspiration from me and i would like to share it out wif u all,
pls pardon me if there are any mistakes....

loyalty...wads its true meaning? to me, it means to support an organisation or person.

-In school(pri&sec) ,loyalty lies with the school , with the cca and with friends.
-In poly , loyalty dun exist in school but in clubs&society ;not to the class but to your group of friends
-in terms of country , be loyal to one and one country only.
- in relationship , be loyal to the one and only person u loved seconded only to your family.

Monday, June 30, 2008

NP...a dangerous place to be at nite

like wad i had promise u on my past 3 posts..im gonna explain y NP is dangerous at nite...base on my nitewalk experience...my friend experience and some other rumours and stories of NP...some places in NP that u nd to be careful at nite...will be :

->the area around canteen 2
->blk 50
->FMS blk
->LSCT blk
->swimming complex
->track and field
->badminton court

lets talk abt the 1st site. the area around canteen 2...yes...it includes the canteen. lights are off at abt 8-9pm and by 11pm all lights around canteen 2 will go out. my friend who can see , said that 'they' begin to appear at around 11pm and gather at canteen 2. i myself noe it cos i feel their very presence while refilling water bottles...basically u gt the feeling u are gtting stared at and its not the feeling of jus one pair of eyes..its ALOT of pairs of eyes staring at your back. sometimes they might want to play wif u and appear as dark shadows...jus like how they did to me...floating left and right at the corner of my eye >.<

blk 50 is another haunting site. the block has 7 floor. the 7th floor's entrance was block off by an iron gate becos i heard that the 7th floor is the rooftop. anyway...this blk's lvl is directly proportional to the type of ghost that resides there...lvl 1 was clear so the lvl starts at lvl 2 or 3
cos during the nitewalk one of my helpers who is in charge of being the scarer in blk 50 said he heard footsteps and one camper even said that she saw a piece of cloth was floating around in the middle of the corridor. some rumours oso states that on lvl 6 is the scariest , espacially the girl's toilet...heres how the story goes : some seniors were holding a bonding camp for their juniors and they plan blk 50 as one of the places to go to. everything went smoothly when one of the patrol team receive an urgent SOS sms from one of the campers...she was at blk 50 and she ask him to gt her out. the patrol rush to blk 50 and went to find her...by then she was so shaken shocked that she lost her ability to answer. so the patrol gave her a phone and said to use it to ans his qn.
after much probing , she finally tell him wad happen....
she was walking along the nitewalk path and into blk 50 ,lvl 6 and was told to go into the girl's toilet. the moment she went in , she saw a young woman carrying a baby and was holding a knife and was hacking the baby, the woman was crying but did not stop her hacking actions , at that moment she turn to look at the camper, her face was bloodied and there was no pupils in her eyes. the camper gt back out , send out an distress call and started to cry and cry and cry...until someone came and fetch her.
well..this is jus a story of blk 50 lvl 6 , i am sure theres alot more stories than this.

nxt up is the FMS blk....this is the part which creep me out the most because in the FMS blk , there is a corridor at lvl 5 . this place is very eerie y? cos the corridor was filled with reflective windows and whats worse is at nite u can still be able to look at yourself...somewhat...and trust me...its a place u dun wanna go at nite.

LSCT blk...the block that overtake blk 50 in terms of stories. LSCT was basically design to scare ppl...or thats wad i thnk...if u were to take a walk around LSCT u will see a poster of a pale face staring at u with its mouth holding something red....at nite...i dare u to look at the poster again. anyway...LSCT is NP oldest block and sightings have been reported from ghosts to the guards of hell.

swimming complex....now this is something i heard from my friend who can see 'them' , he said that there is a female ghost that resides at the swimming complex....whether issit a water ghost or not i am not sure...and i definately wont check it out too.

track and field...from wad my friend says...theres something on track 4 ,it is said that any1 who is in track 4 will have a sudden urge to run.

badminton court....i am not sure of the details of it but i do know that above one lvl is where our cca cupboard and cage is located...

thats all for now...according to my info that is...

my cca shooting camp[out-dated] part 3(final)

27/04/08,Sunday,Day 3

woke up again...but relief to know that todae is the last day of camp...we had afew activities for them...the amazing race...and the cheer....lol...the amazing race...was a success...for them...it did not go according to my plan...but nthing failed so i shall conclude that its ok...

but the amazing race is macham i running the race...cos im the one thats running...checking the stations and all...making sure all goes smoothly....yea...at the end of the day...every1 had fun so i guess my hardwork paid off...=D...then when the cheer competition come...it was hilarious...one grp even show us adult scenes sia...omg...haha....XD...after that we had the final debrief then took afew grp pics and we can finally say balik kampong...haha...took my bag...my skates...and da-bao bread and sweets thats left after the camp...i look like some1 who just came out from maju camp sia...kl oso...he took a taxi home...and i follow suit...too tired liao...plus 2 big bag...and my toy oso...so heavy...so i went home...took a bath and invade my bed...and that concludes my 3D/2N camp at NP....pics of the camp will be shown in another post...(im trying to find btr websites other than photo bucket)

my cca shooting camp[out-dated] part 2

26/04/08,Saturday,Day 2

woke up by my president at about 7am and prepare for the day's activities. im groggy from yst nitewalk reki...and went to the swimming complex there to take a shower wif daniel, morgen and ven. the swimming complex de toilet..is much....much better than the other toilets in the school...have temperature control system as well...woot! anyway...after a quick shower...i felt more refresh and look forward to the day's event. and gt ready to eat breakfast...some of them are big eaters...haha...giv them beehoon not enuf de...some of them call breakfast set from the canteen...haha...then after breakfast...they go and do their cheering practice...all of them are normal except for the whiskey grp...they dam high...all the way...haha...especially the girls...i was watching them during their practice and oso waiting for the bus to come...when the bus came...i call the GLs to escort their grp up the bus and see them off...when they reach HTNS...we went to the shooting centre where the campers gt their basic course...i was there boh liaoing lor...walk around...went back home to gt something...my mom was shock to see me come back...again...and ask me y i come back and like wan to shoo me away...so i said "wah...where gt dun welcome me home de...." then my mum like dunno wad to say...=P...so i went bck home to rest abit...then rush off to meet up wif my campers and the other in-charge(s) that went wif me...after the course they went back and wif the same bus that brought us...(duh...-.-) after we reach back to np...we told them to rest and i went back to my job as helper head and see how is the preparations for the later activities are going...and they are doing a good job at it though i must say the sight of our "ammo" trays of water bombs are tempting...so...they were having their otot(own time own target) and we(helpers) were busy finishing up the water bombs.later that nite we have our evening activites and the water bomb game...which...1/2 pass and 1/2 failed...pass becos we had fun...fail cos we did not play by the original rule set by....me? but anyway...it was very fun cos we took afew of the water bombs and hide them on lvl 2 and plan to ambush them...haha..macham gonna order artillery strike on them...lol...i can imagine those campers on the 1st floor...incoming water bombs upfront...and in the air?!...haha...then one of them spotted us...darn it...mus escape...but i abit suay kena caught...become POW...kena whack...haha...with water bombs of cos...haha...

after that...we had a rest and gt rdy for the nitewalk , i was position as patrol...which i heard is the worst job ever cos if anything happen u mus chiong there and jagga the situation...heng nthing happen...anyway...i was team up wif jh...who...to my despair...dun have ANY experience in nitewalk b4...and therefore wont noe the do's and dont's of the nitewalk...i shall explain it in my nxt post...
anyway...this is highly vexing..cos i myself oso dunwan to encounter the "good brothers" so i told her the basic of wad not to do and wad not to do...luckily she did as she was told and nthing happen that nite...cos there are afew places where i can feel their aura...no kidding...anyway...when the nitewalk is finished..we gather and have a debrief...i was alrdy so tired that immediately after the debrief i slpt...str. infront of every1...kl...was not so fortnate....in which i shall explain y again in my nxt post "NP a dangerous place at nite"...anyway...i heard the others orderd..mac...and they call at 4am sharp...lol...

Friday, May 2, 2008

my cca shooting camp[out-dated] part 1

its been a long time since i updated my blog....and yes..as i promised..i will write my exp during my camp...haha....though its scary at night....its sure is fun....hmm...how shld i start? alright...thats start from day 1...
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25/04/08,Friday,Day 1
i pack my bags , Rollerblades and "product" into 3 bags...1 for clothes...1 for the rollerblades and 1 plastic bag for me to put my "product" then when i move out of the house, i practically look like i just came back from tekong...reach sch to put my "luggage" to the cage...and rush off to lesson wif kl...lesson was...well...boring as usual...after lesson...we da bao food back up to the club cage and eat our lunch there...then began our stoning period....cos we practically have nthing to do liao...haha...went rollerblading wif kl arnd the fencing practice court....wu liao right? then we do nthing until jh comes and the com members slowly begins to gather at our cca cage...thats was when i realise i havent gt some impt things wif me like my slping bag and torchlight.....dam...took a bus home and take my things...then flag a cab and chiong to sch liao....lol..we begin gathering the campers at around 7pm...i use a loud hailer...haha...fun sia...then the when we finish gathering them...we took them up to their bunks/rooms...and kick start the 1st camp activity...ICE BREAKING GAMES!! im not so sure about the details on how the games are being progress but from wad i heard...they merged to become one big group and play together haha...then at around 10.45pm...i was told to check on whether the LT have been booked....and oso to seal off particular areas deemed as dangerous...or shld i say...haunted spots...one area was the rooms near the canteen 2 garbage chutes...and its beside the camper's bunk...haha...so after the ice-breaking game...we(me and ash) took the danger tape and seal off the entrance to that route...another place that we are told to seal off is the back of LT-5A/B but then we found out that the back door is for emergency onli and therefore its automatically locked..so there was no need for us to seal...haha...theres oso other places...in which i will later maybe pin point the locations...so...after i checked wif the security...i went to cheers to buy some drinks...but then end up buying alot of instant noodle for us com. members...i fork out 20...but then dunno who eat whos...so i was like "ah fuck it la...". we prep the LT cos we have a scary movie for them...[in preparation for the nxt day's nitewalk], so when the camper's been lead to the LT we(helpers) were oso bsy preparing their supper..consisting of milo and biscuit...yea...and after the supper preparation is done...we stone at the entrance of the LT....but moved after the lights switch off...the security guard uncle was very nice...he giv me a hint in which i pass it in to the others...and that hint is : stay in the light. so as soon as the lights switch off..i move out of the corridor of the LT...yea...and its rather creepy cos the lights dun jus switch off all at once...it close one every 10mins...and i was like omg...heng im outside...anyway..when the show is over...the campers throng out...and gt their respective supper and talk like its still 5pm...but then....as the nxt day is their intro course...we have to let them rest...so we ask the GLs to gather them and do a head count and escort them back to their bunk...we folo suit...but then did not rest for long as we(the whole team including GLs) will have to take the nitewalk route and reki the place...and the places that we are going thru is really haunted...as there have been sightings...and i think i have seen it too...its around the ending routes of the nitewalk , i saw a whitish figure on the reflective windows of the blocks..din dare to look up in case i saw something 'unclean'...besides there...theres the dark corridor...where i saw a hazy figure in the window...yea..and thats probably thats it...oh yea...after the nitewalk..at about 2am+ i was feeling thirsty and ask if anybody wanna come down wif me to refill...all of them oso shag like hell liao so they refuse..so i no choice...and have to go down myself...but they can ask me help them refill oso...bastards...haha...anyway...i was going down to canteen 2 to refill the water bottles and when i start refilling the bottles..i felt something is staring at me...i did not wanna think abt it at 1st...but the feeling just keep getting worser and when i complete my 1st bottle and began the 2nd bottle...this time...i saw dark shadows at the corners of my eyes hovering here and there...my hand auto-tremble by then...and when its refilled i quickly capped it and went up..though i still had 3 bottles left...i cannot take it le...went up and said..."i dun care i onli filled 2..the rest ..im sry..i cannot refill it for u unless some1 can come with me..."yj and kelvin saw like my face abit pale le...then offer to accompany me...then things went more smoothly...after that we went bck up and i return the bottles...and later...our debrief then we go slp...jay was noisy as usual in his slp...ken nearly whack him becos of his snoring...hahaha...i was playing some stunts wif my light sticks...rather colourful(i gt a soft applause from ash...XD...lol...)then gt tired of it and went to rest...and i slpt like a log till the nxt day...thats like all that happen on fri...
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Monday, March 24, 2008

freaky night at the chalet

this is suppose to be written afew days back but then becos of work and my packed schedule...i havent been able to write......ok...some days i mayb lazy...:P anyway...im gona talk abt my cca chalet event...well...we organise this chalet actual real purpose is to bond the club and gt to noe each other more...but as u noe...life is not as smooth as always...the agreed plan to stay overnight was not carried out as the two girls cant stay...but then on the bright side..cos onli left we guys...so we all buy beer...=D in the end no1 gt drunk...in the afternoon....me and kok loon went to meet them at the chalet and i proceed to play mahjong wif kl,yj and jh in the end...yj hu 3 times and i 1 time...after that, ken, our treasurer took over kl...he ar,...gt the sha qi during the mahjong game....i play wif him real stress...haha....after that we have BBQ...ken ordered....alot of chicken wings...ALOT of otars and satays...and some lamb chops...nthing interesting happen except for ash's complain abt the fire...and me and yj keep teasing jh...haha...at night...i go buy some beer and kena their booby traps...i tio 2/3 traps set by them...wtf...haha....then we try out the smoke and flash grenade...technically speaking...both of them failed...but the flashbang can still make improvements...cos the smoke grenade failed to ignite...then we tried the flashbang...and b4 that happens...we told the girls to evacuate to the room upstairs...and for some reasons they open both the door and window...well...when we tried to fire the prototype flashbang , it worked...cos it has a great flash...but the after effect is dense smoke...REAL DENSE....we all evac the whole chalet hse for a while except for the 2 girls..trap on the top...and we rush to the top and save them....jh is alright but then damala said she cant breathe...therefore ash quickly use one of his shirt and wet it wif water and rush up and cover her face wif the wet shirt...and she is saved...then after awhile when the smoke cleared we oso clear the "disaster zone" esp the "grnd zero" area and proceed to bbq again...1 to cover our tests...2 so we can eat again...=D then soon after...the girls go hme and left us guys...and kl, ash and jay gt nthing to do and so go bck to the room and talk and yj was napping on the grnd floor while jc and i was BBQ-ing the satays and eating them until we sian of them...haha...then suddenly those 3 came dwn and started to talk abt ghosts cos kl say he felt something in this hse....for ur info...my friend kl and hear and sometimes see them...so when he enter the room he said he felt something le and we were chatting when suddenly kl remain silent and spoke "i felt someone is behind me nw" but then there is ABSOLUTELY nthing...nw this is gtting freaky...then he said some prayers and ask her(its a female ghost) to go else where....then like abt 5mins later kl tell ash that she is behind him...ash nod as he said he can feel something behind him oso...and that something jus touch his face...he was so tense up...i was scared cos at that time....hey to fight against something u cant see? wtf la...so i was saying my sutras....haha...then kl turn to face the staircase and then turn back...and said he wanted to said something more scarier...that was when we shut him up. he told us that she resides in the room above...yea, where damala said she cant breath de place...he wanted to continue but then we told him to say it when dawn breaks then they said the most funny thing...they wan to go bck and slp at the room cos gt aircon....wtf...i heck them...cos at that time...ash's lappy was playing somes songs and there was a song call lemon tree its a nice song...at least to a certain extent b4 turning itself to alarm clocks...hhaha....kpt me yj and jc awake for the whole night...all half aslp...-.-...the nxt day i ask kl wad he saw last night...he said he saw blood dripping on the staircase...so i was like ok...thank god u din tell us...heng ar...when morning breaks we pack up and prep to leave.
the night was fun and freaky too haha...a totally new exp...

here are some of the pics of the chalet...its not much but....thats wad i do in the afternoon....

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this is the NPSC committee members for the year 08'

may this piece of memory to shared among my friends and all...=D

wad a song that holds meaning

i was viewing my friend's blog when i hear his BGM de song....its a really nice song that when u hear it...theres something that move u...i dun really know how to explain but i can onli say that after listening...onli ur heart will noe its meaning...its truly a nice song...

the name of this song is "merry christmas mr.lawrence" by ryuichi sakamoto and fyi its the theme song for the movie "the leap years"




may u enjoy this piece of song...

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

pissed off

todae i mus have woken up at the wrong side of the bed...tell my father wad i will be doing later todae and let slip that i will be collecting a tub of ice cream from work for xm's present...somehow he thinks that i make it friends more impt than family...and make a big fuss over it...@#$%...its not like i dun wan to buy for my family...i myself oso gt financial difficulties...i mean...i gt the job...u wan ice cream its an esy thing to get...but then i gotta set priorities oso mah..at that time i onli gt enuf cash to buy 1 tub and i have alrdy promise my friend liao...i cant go bck on my words...so i heck care...then i tot since i bring back the ice cream to keep i shld tell my family abt it...dammit...if i noe i will get this kind of reaction i rather not say it out...invite trouble for me...some family counselors said that u mus be open to ur family...yea right...i try to be open and i gt this reaction...sua...then i diam diam...i dun say anything nthing will go wrng for me...i diam...

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bank a/c still looks as pathetic as ever...cant wait for my 1st payout...and tml is result day...oh...lets jus say i hope not for the worst...

hope i can go to 2nd year...(praying hard)

Monday, March 3, 2008

its been a long time again.....

as my title implies....its has been a long time since i posted something on my blog...but there are somethings that i dun feel like writing and some things that are better left unsaid...in any case...i have begun my countdown to the release of the result and i can tell u right nw....im not optimistic...not at all...though im not optimistic for all my results since pri 1...lol..."the higher u hope, the harder u fall" so i figure that if i dun give it much hope then it might not be that painful when u gt ur result, this is true....its my personal experience and have other e.g. that i do not wan to show to prove it...so this is wad i do :
-do ur best during the exam
-after exams...do ur best not to evaluate the paper with the others...that will jus depress you
-when u believe in the phrase "the higher you hope, the harder you fall" do not have high hope that u will gt high marks, just hope for an average score[meaning not to give up hope] in doing so, u sort of produce a cushion for the inevitable fall.
-most importantly , after the exams...remember this "wads done is done, there is no turning back" and look forward to ur next paper.

the end result is that u have jus bought an insurance , if u gt good/the expected results, then all is good, but if its bad...at least u had a cushion to soften the impact of ur fall...some ppl die cos of poor result, imbeciles...they just cant think that far.

sometimes...i think the RP way of learning is btr for me...but then i dun like the atmosphere and the reputation? cos for 1..i dun like taking exams(i mean...who does?!)...

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i finally got a job, i cant believe it. im gonna work at a place call daily scoop...its an ice-cream shop that sells...hand-made ice cream. tml...or shld i say later todae im gonna start work...but then i felt bad for my friend...u c..he is the one that offer me this job opportunity and it shld have been onli him to go for the interview, and oso + the fact that his god-sis intro de...so when the employer(boss) told me that onli i was chosen...i felt abit bad(guilty?)...haiz...anyway...i am planning on working there for a long period of time(depending on my timetable) so after i am used to the surrounding and stuff...drop by k? haha.....btw the place is at sunset way.

thats abt all i wan to say le...will update when i feel like it...for nw nights....

signing off,
[L-@-M-E-R]

Thursday, February 14, 2008

issit really true.........?

10 Mistakes of Men

MISTAKE #1: Being Too Much Of A “Nice Guy”

Have you ever noticed that the really attractive women never seem to be attracted "nice" guys?
Of course you have.
Am sure you've had attractive female friends that always seemed to date "jerks"... but for some reason they were never romantically interested in YOU.
What's going on here?
It's actually very simple...
Women don't base their choices of men on how "nice" a guy is. They choose the men they do because they feel a powerful GUT LEVEL ATTRACTION for them.
And guess what?
Being nice doesn't make a woman FEEL that powerful ATTRACTION.
And being NICE doesn't make a woman CHOOSE you.
If this doesn't make a lot of logical sense, and it's hard to ACCEPT... GET OVER IT.
Until you accept this FACT and begin to act on it, you'll NEVER have the success with women that you want.

MISTAKE #2: Trying To “Convince Her To Like You”

What do most guys do when they meet a woman that they REALLY like... but she's just not interested?
Right! They try to "convince" the woman to feel differently.
Well, here's news for you... YOU WILL NEVER CHANGE HOW A WOMAN "FEELS" WHEN IT COMES TO ATTRACTION!
Never, ever, EVER.
You cannot CONVINCE a woman to feel differently about you with "logic and reasoning".
Think about it.
If a woman doesn't "feel it" for you, how in the world do you expect to change that FEELING by being "reasonable" with her?
But we all do it.
When a woman just isn't interested, we beg, plead, chase, and do our best to change her mind.
Bad idea. One that will never work.

MISTAKE #3: Looking To Her For Approval Or Permission

In our desire to please women (which we mistakenly think will make them like us), us guys are always doing things to get a woman's "approval" or "permission".
Another HORRIBLE idea.
Women are NEVER attracted to the types of men who kiss up to them... EVER.
So Don't get it wrong here.
You don't have to treat women BADLY for them to like you.
But if you think that treating a woman well means "always getting her approval and permission for things", think again.
You will never succeed by looking for approval. Women actually get ANNOYED at men who seek their approval.
Doubt me? Just ask any attractive woman if Wussy guys who chase her around and want her approval annoy her...

MISTAKE #4: Trying To “Buy”Her Affection With Food And Gifts

How many times have you taken a woman out to a nice dinner, bought her gifts and flowers, and had her REJECT you for someone who didn't treat her even HALF as well as you did?
If you're like most guys, then you've had it happen a LOT.
Well guess what?
It's only NATURAL when this happens...
That's right, its NATURAL.
When you do these things, you send a clear message:
"I don't think you'll like me for who I am, so I'm going to try to buy your attention and affection".
Your good intentions usually come across to women as over-compensation for insecurity, and weak attempts at manipulation.
That's right, women see this as MANIPULATION.

MISTAKE #5: Sharing “How You Feel” Too Early In The Relationship With Her

Another huge and unfortunate mistake that most men make with women is sharing how they "feel" too early on.
Attractive women are rare.
And they get a LOT of attention from men.
Most men don't realize this, but attractive women are being approached in one way or another ALL THE TIME.
An attractive woman is often approached several times a DAY by men who are interested. This translate into dozens of times per week, and often HUNDREDS of times per month.
And guess what?
Attractive women have usually dated a LOT of men.
That's right. They have EXPERIENCE.
They know what to expect.
And one thing that turns an attractive women off and sends her running away faster than just about anything is a guy who starts saying "You know, I really, REALLY like you" after one or two dates.
This signals to the woman that you're just like all the other guys who fall for her too fast... and can't control themselves.
Don't do it. Lean back. Relax.
There's a much better way...

MISTAKE #6: Not “Getting” How Attraction Works For Women

Women are VERY different from men when it comes to ATTRACTION.
You need to accept this fact, and deal with it.
When a man sees a beautiful, young, sexy woman, he INSTANTLY feels a sexual attraction.
But does the same apply for women?
Do women feel sexual attraction to men based mostly on looks? Or is something else going on?
Well, according to studies, it is apparent now that women usually have their "attraction mechanisms" triggered by things OTHER than looks.
Have you ever noticed that you see a lot more average and unattractive men with beautiful women than the other way around?
Think about it.
Women are more attracted to certain qualities in men... and they're attracted to the way a man makes them FEEL than they are to looks alone.
If you know how to use your body language and communication correctly, you can make women feel the same kind of powerful sexual attraction to you that YOU feel when you see a hot, sexy young woman.
But it's not an accident. You have to LEARN how to do this.
Here’s the GOOD news…. ANY guy can learn how...

MISTAKE #7: Thinking That It Takes Money And Looks

One of the most common mistakes that guys make is giving up before they've even gotten started... because they think that attractive women are only interested in men who have looks and money... or guys who are a certain height... or guys who are a certain age.
And sure, there are some women who are only interested in these things.
But MOST women are far more interested in a man's personality than his wallet or his looks.
There are personality traits that attract women like a magnet...
And if you learn what they are and how to use them, YOU can be one of these guys.
YOU DO NOT have to "settle" for a woman just because you aren't rich, tall, or handsome
Again: If you know how to use your body language and communication correctly, you can make women feel the same kind of powerful sexual attraction to you that YOU feel when you see a hot, sexy young woman.

MISTAKE #8: Giving Away All of Your Power To Women

Mentioned earlier… that it's a mistake to look to a woman for approval or permission.
Well, another similar tactic that a lot of guys use is GIVING AWAY THEIR POWER to women.
Said differently, guys try to get women to like them by doing whatever the woman wants.
Another bad idea...
Women are NEVER attracted to men that they can walk all over... Women aren't attracted to Wussies!

MISTAKE #9: Not Knowing EXACTLY What To Do In Each Type Of Situation With Women

Now this will blow your mind...
A woman ALWAYS knows what you're thinking.
Women are approximately TEN TIMES better than men at reading body language. That's ten TIMES.
It might be hard to believe. But for example, if you're out on a date with a woman, and you want to kiss her, she knows it.
And if you don't know exactly what to do and exactly HOW to kiss her, and you just sit there looking at her and getting nervous, she won't help!
And this goes for ALL aspects of women and dating...
Approaching a woman, getting her number, asking her out, kissing her, getting physical... everything.
If you don't know what to do in each situation, you will probably screw it up... feel screwed and LOSE EVERYTHING.
And you KNOW it.
It is VITALLY important that you know EXACTLY how to go from one step to the next with a woman... from the first meeting, all the way to the bedroom.

MISTAKE #10: Not Getting HELP

This is the biggest mistake of all.
This is the mistake that keeps most men from EVER having the kind of success with women that they truly want.
Most guys don't like to make themselves look weak or helpless. Don't like to ask for help.

51 things most GIRL don't know about guyz

51 things most GIRL don't know about guyz

1. Guys hate sluts.

2. "Hey, are you busy?" or "Are you doing something?" ~ two phrases guys open with to stop from stammering on the phone.

3. Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.

4. Before they call, guys try to plan out a little about what they're gonna say so there aren't awkward pauses, but once he's on the phone he forgets it all and makes it up as he goes.

5. Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.

6. Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him.

7. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest. Unless they're going for the let-her-complain-to-you-and-then-have-her-realize-
how-wonderful-and-nice-you-are method.

8. A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to.

9. Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they're still loved.

10. Don't talk about your guy friends to your boyfriend.

11. Guys get jealous easily.

12. Guys are more emotional than they'd like people to think.

13. Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what?!..uh...nevermind.." would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.

14. Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.

15. Guys hate asking parents for money to buy girls presents. So they come up with ideas like saving their lunch money for a week. But it never works because guys are always hungry so they end up asking the parents for money anyway.

16. Girls are guys' weaknesses.

17. Guys are very open about themselves.

18. It's good to test a guy first before you trust him. But don't let him wait too long.

19. Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help from about his problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend.

20. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.

21. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.

22. Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships.

23. Guys will brag about anything.

24. Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. They rarely use beautiful. If a guy uses that, he likes you.

25. Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn't notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it meant.

26. Guys seek for advice from girls not other guys. Because most guys think alike, so if one guy's confused, then we're all confused.

27. Any guy could write out a rulebook or advice book for flirting, but no guy can write out a book about relationships.

28. Try to be as straightforward as possible.

29. A guy has to experience rejection, because if he's too-good-never-been-busted, never been in love and hurt, he won't be mature and grown up.

30. If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl.

31. No matter how much guys talk about asses and boobs, personality is key.

32. Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience.

33. Guys worry about the thin line between being compassionate and being whipped.

34. If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and is spazzing inside.

35. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is. Guys rarely say that.

36. When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, "Please come and listen to me."

37. Guys don't really have final decisions.

38. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.

39. If your best guy friend seems to avoid you or is never around when you're with your boyfriend, he's probably jealous and likes you.

40. When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something.

41. Guys like femininity not feebleness.

42. Guys don't like girls who punch harder than they do.

43. A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.

44. Don't be a snob. Guys can be intimidated and give up easily.

45. Everything in moderation. Put on makeup, wear perfume. Just not too much.

46. Guys talk about girls more than girls talk about guys.

47. Guys hate rejection, but they hate being led on even more.

48. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them.

49. A guy would give his left nut to be able to read a girl's mind for a day.

50. No guy can handle all his problems by his own. He's just too stubborn to admit it

51. Not all guys are assholes. Just because ONE is a jackass doesnt mean he represents ALL of you.