Thursday, March 26, 2009
wow inconsiderate~!!!
this incident happen on tuesday, 24/3/08. dam this fcking family makes me pissed off...meng and i met to have dinner at west mall at around 6.15+ liddat...we found a place to seat and i waited for meng to go order his food 1st...during that time i personally see that the cleaner auntie clean the tables and wiping it clean...then when meng gt back, i go order food...while i was waiting for my food to be rdy...i glance back at our table....nnb wad did i see? another tray of leftovers...wtf is this? i use eye language to ask meng "wtf is THAT" then he reply" them lor..." -eye towards the family infront of him- i look over and saw the family sitting down acting as if nthing happen!!!! NNBCCB...when i return to the table i ask my friend in a loud voice,"EH WHO PUT THE TRAY THERE DE?" my friend say in a softer voice, "them la...knn...they jus take the tray and put it on our table...can still smile at me somemore" wtf! then the family like behind me nia...i GLARE at the family they look at us...diam diam...smart that they dun argue...fcking hell i would have suan them till they felt that they had drown in a pool of vinegar...tmd...meng say they might be foreigners so they dunno "how things work here" cb...nver met this kind of ppl in my life...thats the 1st...we scold them the whole time we were eating...then when i turn around i saw like 2 ppl...i ask my friend" eh...those kuk bok kias(a nicer version of pu boh kia) left arldy ar...?" meng din reply...then afterwards tell me"no...those kuk bok kias havent left" me:"@#$%^$#@#$"....after our meal i wanna get desert de...meng tell me go downstairs and buy...i ask y he said he see the family infront buay song ruin mood to eat here...i said ok lor...since i oso buay song them...then we head down to B1 and get a drink...i proceed to do my marketing research on the flour prices...and after that...we went home....dam that family makes me soo angry lor...zzzzzz
Friday, March 20, 2009
Monday, March 16, 2009
lol
i wanna blog!! but i feel kinda lazy right now...lol...alright alright...since i have this window up for the past...let me see....5hrs? i will write...rmb the other post i said i will elaborate on the things i wanted to most right? ok here goes :
care - i really want some1 to care about me...besides my family...i want to care for that person as well...a life of loneliness is very saddening...
love - i want to love some1 very much, cos i know that loving some1 is not i can be with her...but wad makes her happy. love is a difficult thing for me...but i want to love some1...and i hope that magic moment will appear soon
studies - i wanted to go thru higher education because in order to survive in this world, that thin slip of cert is ur ticket to survival.
career - this is AFTER my education, where i will be starting to work in the real world le...no more part time relaxing job. i want to get myself a stable job that im happy with, a job that my kids will be proud to say "thats my dad's job!" a stable job = a stable income = less worries abt monetary woes.
car - b4 i went to learn driving, im pretty much not interested in cars...cos i feel that cars...wads the use man...that idea totally gt wiped when i reach poly and have to join in the packed sardines in the mobile tin can almost everyday i made up my mind to learn driving...and begin to learn how to look at cars and their specs. unlike other guys, i dun go for sports cars...i think they are a waste of money. if i wan a car, i wld gt a camry or a altis...both are toyota bah....brands will be honda, kia, nissan, mitshibitshi, mayb mazda, and if im crazy enuf....CHERRY QQ haha...aside from the transportation to my school, i want to learn it so that i can drive my family around s'pore...quite easily too...i can drive around s'pore as well...drive wif my friends...at nite...look at the nitelife...spot the good food location and while driving i can oso reflect on wad i have done...
house - i want to be out of my house and own 1 flat for myself asap...not because i hate my family, i jus want to be independent and live on my own...to be able to cook for myself, to survive on myself, to earn money and upkeep my new "home". not to get interfered wif other ppl around when i bring my date home...i feel free...to be myself...lol...and yea...i forgt to add in...i enjoy cooking as well...always wanted to experiment and eat the things i make haha...simple dishes can look very delicious with a touch of creativity and make it look like an exquisite french cuisine haha
care - i really want some1 to care about me...besides my family...i want to care for that person as well...a life of loneliness is very saddening...
love - i want to love some1 very much, cos i know that loving some1 is not i can be with her...but wad makes her happy. love is a difficult thing for me...but i want to love some1...and i hope that magic moment will appear soon
studies - i wanted to go thru higher education because in order to survive in this world, that thin slip of cert is ur ticket to survival.
career - this is AFTER my education, where i will be starting to work in the real world le...no more part time relaxing job. i want to get myself a stable job that im happy with, a job that my kids will be proud to say "thats my dad's job!" a stable job = a stable income = less worries abt monetary woes.
car - b4 i went to learn driving, im pretty much not interested in cars...cos i feel that cars...wads the use man...that idea totally gt wiped when i reach poly and have to join in the packed sardines in the mobile tin can almost everyday i made up my mind to learn driving...and begin to learn how to look at cars and their specs. unlike other guys, i dun go for sports cars...i think they are a waste of money. if i wan a car, i wld gt a camry or a altis...both are toyota bah....brands will be honda, kia, nissan, mitshibitshi, mayb mazda, and if im crazy enuf....CHERRY QQ haha...aside from the transportation to my school, i want to learn it so that i can drive my family around s'pore...quite easily too...i can drive around s'pore as well...drive wif my friends...at nite...look at the nitelife...spot the good food location and while driving i can oso reflect on wad i have done...
house - i want to be out of my house and own 1 flat for myself asap...not because i hate my family, i jus want to be independent and live on my own...to be able to cook for myself, to survive on myself, to earn money and upkeep my new "home". not to get interfered wif other ppl around when i bring my date home...i feel free...to be myself...lol...and yea...i forgt to add in...i enjoy cooking as well...always wanted to experiment and eat the things i make haha...simple dishes can look very delicious with a touch of creativity and make it look like an exquisite french cuisine haha
i am addicted to quizzies!! lol...
i do a quiz in facebook named : "What does your birthday say about you?" quiz and below is wad i get haha :
Philip Chua took the "What does your birthday say about you?" quiz and the result is: February
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislike unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.
and u know wad? it all true!!....well mayb not the attractive and sexy and intelligent and clever part though....lol...
Philip Chua took the "What does your birthday say about you?" quiz and the result is: February
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislike unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.
and u know wad? it all true!!....well mayb not the attractive and sexy and intelligent and clever part though....lol...
Sunday, March 15, 2009
a more detail description
what im about to say is related to all my forecasts and predictions....it can be said to be a combination of dreams, vision and memory flashbacks....but i shall describe it...i have this ability since when i was in sec sch...lol...i have given a name for this...because the feeling is like stepping into another realm...i shall call it the realm of delusions...sound very emo isn't it...but yes...its all delusions...and from this delusions...i can use it as predictions...to start of...i will intro abit of myself. i have a weird mind...i get memories flashbacks every now and then and its a torture...but sometimes...i do not have flashbacks...but i see a vision...of wad i can say, the future...even if its like 2s. or sometimes...i hear some1 telling me "its not right" " this way wont work out" "btr think of an alternative" etc...i hear and take it seriously, u may say it as i follow my wad my heart says. haha...but thats wad i exp... now the thing abt this "ability" of mine...its that i mus not reveal it to anyone or the nxt time i use, the opposite effect will happen, meaning, if i were to reveal it...the "realm of delusions" will become a fact. a good thing and a bad thing...lol...so wad im doing right now is sorta revealing it u all...hope the higher ups wont catch me (>.<). so anyway...it happens every nite...when i was going to slp...my mind "rewind" everything that happen todae, yst and the past weeks....as i close my eyes...i see alot of images and vid(i dunno wad word to describe when u close ur eyes and see ppl moving so i jus say its vid)often this images and vids are things that i want them to happen. i can tell u right now, i have a confession, i dreamt that i was making love to my gf...her face is very blurry...i dunno...(all those who have read , pls dun be disgusted, its normal for guys to have dreams like that...and no its not a wet dream and most imptly it did not happen in reality)...but that did not happen...i had a image i flunk every modules , i did not...i manage to scrap thru, i dreamt that i was able to get into the course i wanted(triple E in SP) i did not get...this are jus examples of wad i had exp...when i wake up the nxt day...normally i wont giv a tot abt it...nd to rush to sch mah...but those images and vids that i see remain in me...and here is y the flashbacks occur...i think la...cos i do not have the time to think thru wads happening in my dream or shall i say my "realm of delusions" then when i was awake...these tot slowly flooded into my consious mind making me see the past, sometimes the future, makes the regret on the spot y i had done this or that...oh yea i forgt to add in my realm of delusions, its a mix of illusions and delusions...illusions are created by me while delusions...are also by me but it contains more of the things i truly wanted...care, love, studies, career, car, house etc...
it all i can say now...its my ability, its a gift and also a curse...
since i roughly reveal this ability of mine liao...the nxt time i see these things again...most likely will be accurate...since the opposite effect will occur. i will elaborate more on the things i want in life when im free haha...chiaoz!
[philip] once a lamer 4ever a lamer...the lamerof 1989...it is he!
it all i can say now...its my ability, its a gift and also a curse...
since i roughly reveal this ability of mine liao...the nxt time i see these things again...most likely will be accurate...since the opposite effect will occur. i will elaborate more on the things i want in life when im free haha...chiaoz!
[philip] once a lamer 4ever a lamer...the lamerof 1989...it is he!
Thursday, March 12, 2009
i found that im very poor at expressing myself...i cant bring myself to say out "i like you" or "i love you" infront of ppl...i have something to confess...if i had said that time and place matters...abit true and abit on my attempt to escape...i foresee things...things that i will do and will surely go wrong or wont happen , my inner sense tell me not to do it...but i still do it...cos i folo my heart...this i can tell u now its 100% accurate.
i foresee the breakup wif xm, even b4 i begin courting her...but i still do it...i rmb the time i had wif her...i CURSE my weak body...it shivers during cold at the slightest drop of temp. whenever i think of it...i feel so paiseh!!!! Y DOES THIS THINGS KEEPS HAPPENING TO ME?!!?! I HAD IT ! I HAD ENUF! WHY WHEN I WANT THINGS TO GO LEFT IT GO RIGHT, Y ISIT WHENEVER I LIKE A GIRL ITS ALWAYS ONE-SIDED, WHY DOES SUCH THINGS HAVE TO HAPPEN TO ME...I NOW SO FRUSTRATED AT MY OWN LIFE RIGHT NOW IM CRYING...NOT SADNESS...ITS ANGER...Y I ALWAYS FEEL SO LEFT OUT? FRIENDS? DUN KID WIF ME, I DUN REALLY HAVE BEST FRIENDS...I HAVE LOTS OF FRIENDS YES BUT BUT....not 1 know the real me....the real me that is suffering in me...the outer me try to show an alternative image of myself, but my inner real self if taking on the burden of all the dark secrets that i have...and i know...these secrets cant be let out...AT ANY COST...IT WILL CAUSE ME MY REPUTATION...IF PPL WERE TO KNOW WADS MY HABIT...THEY WILL SHUNNED ME! BUT! WAD CAN I DO? THOSE ARE THINGS THAT FOLO ME FOR THE PAST 20 YRS OF MY LIFE...ITS NOT SOMETHING THAT I CAN CHANGE THAT EASILY...its not someting...a girl will like...i get that im a weird person...i get that froma lot of girls...but i dunno wads so weird abt me???? do i look as if i enjoy being weird? NO I DUN , BUT THEN I DUNNO WAD TO SAY BUT TO SMILE AND SAY "i gt that alot of times" I NOE MY PERSONALITY IS WEIRD...WAD I DO FOR U ALL IS WEIRD BUT THIS IS HW I DO THINGS...Y PUT TO SO THAT I FEEL THAT WAD I DID I MEANINGLESS??? I ALWAYS TRY NOT TO DO THINGS THAT MIGHT BE OFFENSIVE TO U.
BE CONT. WHEN I KNOW WAD TO WRITE ABT MY FCK UP LIFE AGAIN
i foresee the breakup wif xm, even b4 i begin courting her...but i still do it...i rmb the time i had wif her...i CURSE my weak body...it shivers during cold at the slightest drop of temp. whenever i think of it...i feel so paiseh!!!! Y DOES THIS THINGS KEEPS HAPPENING TO ME?!!?! I HAD IT ! I HAD ENUF! WHY WHEN I WANT THINGS TO GO LEFT IT GO RIGHT, Y ISIT WHENEVER I LIKE A GIRL ITS ALWAYS ONE-SIDED, WHY DOES SUCH THINGS HAVE TO HAPPEN TO ME...I NOW SO FRUSTRATED AT MY OWN LIFE RIGHT NOW IM CRYING...NOT SADNESS...ITS ANGER...Y I ALWAYS FEEL SO LEFT OUT? FRIENDS? DUN KID WIF ME, I DUN REALLY HAVE BEST FRIENDS...I HAVE LOTS OF FRIENDS YES BUT BUT....not 1 know the real me....the real me that is suffering in me...the outer me try to show an alternative image of myself, but my inner real self if taking on the burden of all the dark secrets that i have...and i know...these secrets cant be let out...AT ANY COST...IT WILL CAUSE ME MY REPUTATION...IF PPL WERE TO KNOW WADS MY HABIT...THEY WILL SHUNNED ME! BUT! WAD CAN I DO? THOSE ARE THINGS THAT FOLO ME FOR THE PAST 20 YRS OF MY LIFE...ITS NOT SOMETHING THAT I CAN CHANGE THAT EASILY...its not someting...a girl will like...i get that im a weird person...i get that froma lot of girls...but i dunno wads so weird abt me???? do i look as if i enjoy being weird? NO I DUN , BUT THEN I DUNNO WAD TO SAY BUT TO SMILE AND SAY "i gt that alot of times" I NOE MY PERSONALITY IS WEIRD...WAD I DO FOR U ALL IS WEIRD BUT THIS IS HW I DO THINGS...Y PUT TO SO THAT I FEEL THAT WAD I DID I MEANINGLESS??? I ALWAYS TRY NOT TO DO THINGS THAT MIGHT BE OFFENSIVE TO U.
BE CONT. WHEN I KNOW WAD TO WRITE ABT MY FCK UP LIFE AGAIN
todae is very fck up
my life is very fuck up...as usual...nothing goes right for me u see...not for my studies, not for my social life, not for my r/s(if i had 1)...nothing goes right...NOTHING...
slpt until 11+...switch on lappy, do the usual things...check msn,hotmail, manga, anime...see whos online , who can talk wif me....as there is no 1...i spent the time reading my manga lists....then i go wash up, eat my vegetarian breakfast cum lunch, imagine eating salty food with 3 ulcers on ur lips...-.- anyway...then i rot infront of my com then realise its 1.15pm....i gt driving at 2.10pm...so i go take a bath and when i left the hse its like 1.45 liddat...sure cannot make it le...so i hail a cab...manage to gt there in time and then proceed to do my revision...lol! gt improve leh...car nver stall ^^ , onli afew minor mistakes here and there...then when we are abt to end lesson...i cut into the wrong lane...lol...this is the convers i had wif him at that time...:
me: huh? wad happen?
instructor say : walao...liddat sure fail liao...
me : oh liddat immediate failure ar...?
instructor :(nod head)
me : sian 1/2 all nice nice then at the last stretch kena one immediate failure ccb...
instructor : (laugh)
lesson ended without much of a trouble...jus nd to adjust some techniques...then lesson ended at 3.50pm manage to catch bus no.985 jus in time, then i tot to myself, "aiya...now still gt time b4 work(i start at 5pm) take 985 then transfer to 61/184 to np...then ta-bao subway to work at dinner" the prob is that i forgt that im taking 985 and not 66 cos 66 gt go to a stop where theres 184 and 61 to take....985 dun have...and while on the bus...i doze off...wake up jus to find myself miss the stop...but i tot nvm...later i gt off and walk back...that...was my original plan.
but then 985 went str. to PIE i was like OMG SHIT LA.... i press the doorbell lol...PIE + doorbell = no effect? i stop at 1 stop...AFTER PIE....and its at cjc...abts. great...i look at all the bus services and all of them head hougang...FANTASTIC...then i frantically search for a bus that will take me somewhere nearer...the nearest place is toa payoh mrt stn...then i look at my watch...still gt 30mins...mayb can make it...ccb...board the bus then the train...reach clementi onli to get off at the wrong exit...=.=" then i see the time its alrdy 5.15pm no joke...i start work at 5pm...i rush cab onli to find the cab do a round then gt back to somewhere near the place i hail it...then the driver say "if u wan go sunset way take the opp. side of the train station"....I WAS SO ANGRY AT MYSELF THAT I DUN CARE WAD HE SAYS...JUS DRIVE GOD DAMMIT!! i reach my workplace at 5.30pm jus as my boss sms me "where are u?" lol...then at work oso pretty boring la...not much customers...and we end the day quite early...take 61 back to interchange...with a hungry stomach(money spent it all on cab) check my ezlink and decide its enuf to buy something to eat at mac...and so i did...1 McChicken + 1 apple pie...bring back home to eat...i ate my apple pie on the way home and some of the apple bits fell onto my shirt!!! argh!!
jus so u noe...its not consider the worst day of my life...i have seen worst...where everything...EVERY GOD DAMNED THING go wrong in WADEVA things i do...my life is pretty fuck up right now and i am really frustrated abt it...
-i cant do wad most ppl are doing
-i cant do wad i wan
-i predict possible failures yet i continue to do them
-i wan to run away to a place no 1 to tell me wad to do
-i wan to drive around and wonder how i have live my life until now
-i really hope to have some1 to care for
-i believe that if 1 is not interested in u , u are wasting ur effort even if u are interested in that some1, cos its all one sided
-i had enuf of one-sided affairs
-i wan to make my life more interesting
-if im destined to be a loner, no matter how many girls u giv me i will still be single cos they wont choose me or accept me
- if wad im doing right now is wad u call by having depression i dun giv a dam
-if i were to be given a reset button to reset my life, i will press it immediately
-finally, if heaven is planning to play wif my life liddat i would choose to end it rather than let u play wif my life, sadly though i condemned suicides so i will suffer in agony LET U BE HAPPY...FOR I NOE IM NOT GONNA GO TO HEAVEN AND COMPLAIN TO U ABT MY LIFE
slpt until 11+...switch on lappy, do the usual things...check msn,hotmail, manga, anime...see whos online , who can talk wif me....as there is no 1...i spent the time reading my manga lists....then i go wash up, eat my vegetarian breakfast cum lunch, imagine eating salty food with 3 ulcers on ur lips...-.- anyway...then i rot infront of my com then realise its 1.15pm....i gt driving at 2.10pm...so i go take a bath and when i left the hse its like 1.45 liddat...sure cannot make it le...so i hail a cab...manage to gt there in time and then proceed to do my revision...lol! gt improve leh...car nver stall ^^ , onli afew minor mistakes here and there...then when we are abt to end lesson...i cut into the wrong lane...lol...this is the convers i had wif him at that time...:
me: huh? wad happen?
instructor say : walao...liddat sure fail liao...
me : oh liddat immediate failure ar...?
instructor :(nod head)
me : sian 1/2 all nice nice then at the last stretch kena one immediate failure ccb...
instructor : (laugh)
lesson ended without much of a trouble...jus nd to adjust some techniques...then lesson ended at 3.50pm manage to catch bus no.985 jus in time, then i tot to myself, "aiya...now still gt time b4 work(i start at 5pm) take 985 then transfer to 61/184 to np...then ta-bao subway to work at dinner" the prob is that i forgt that im taking 985 and not 66 cos 66 gt go to a stop where theres 184 and 61 to take....985 dun have...and while on the bus...i doze off...wake up jus to find myself miss the stop...but i tot nvm...later i gt off and walk back...that...was my original plan.
but then 985 went str. to PIE i was like OMG SHIT LA.... i press the doorbell lol...PIE + doorbell = no effect? i stop at 1 stop...AFTER PIE....and its at cjc...abts. great...i look at all the bus services and all of them head hougang...FANTASTIC...then i frantically search for a bus that will take me somewhere nearer...the nearest place is toa payoh mrt stn...then i look at my watch...still gt 30mins...mayb can make it...ccb...board the bus then the train...reach clementi onli to get off at the wrong exit...=.=" then i see the time its alrdy 5.15pm no joke...i start work at 5pm...i rush cab onli to find the cab do a round then gt back to somewhere near the place i hail it...then the driver say "if u wan go sunset way take the opp. side of the train station"....I WAS SO ANGRY AT MYSELF THAT I DUN CARE WAD HE SAYS...JUS DRIVE GOD DAMMIT!! i reach my workplace at 5.30pm jus as my boss sms me "where are u?" lol...then at work oso pretty boring la...not much customers...and we end the day quite early...take 61 back to interchange...with a hungry stomach(money spent it all on cab) check my ezlink and decide its enuf to buy something to eat at mac...and so i did...1 McChicken + 1 apple pie...bring back home to eat...i ate my apple pie on the way home and some of the apple bits fell onto my shirt!!! argh!!
jus so u noe...its not consider the worst day of my life...i have seen worst...where everything...EVERY GOD DAMNED THING go wrong in WADEVA things i do...my life is pretty fuck up right now and i am really frustrated abt it...
-i cant do wad most ppl are doing
-i cant do wad i wan
-i predict possible failures yet i continue to do them
-i wan to run away to a place no 1 to tell me wad to do
-i wan to drive around and wonder how i have live my life until now
-i really hope to have some1 to care for
-i believe that if 1 is not interested in u , u are wasting ur effort even if u are interested in that some1, cos its all one sided
-i had enuf of one-sided affairs
-i wan to make my life more interesting
-if im destined to be a loner, no matter how many girls u giv me i will still be single cos they wont choose me or accept me
- if wad im doing right now is wad u call by having depression i dun giv a dam
-if i were to be given a reset button to reset my life, i will press it immediately
-finally, if heaven is planning to play wif my life liddat i would choose to end it rather than let u play wif my life, sadly though i condemned suicides so i will suffer in agony LET U BE HAPPY...FOR I NOE IM NOT GONNA GO TO HEAVEN AND COMPLAIN TO U ABT MY LIFE
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
i have lost the battle b4 it even started
as my title says...now i feel that i have lost the battle b4 it even started, i dunno wad to say liao...rmb me saying that i was racing against time? i have lost and again im in a pathetic state of mind right now...
there is no point having the body if u din manage to capture the heart
there is no point having the body if u din manage to capture the heart
lol...songs again lol...
每天愛你多一些 (國) (Loving You Everyday) - 張學友 Jacky Cheung
每天爱你多一些
也曾追求 也曾失落
不再有梦 是你为我
推开天窗 打开心锁
让希望 又转动
忙碌奔波 偶而迷惑
为了什么 是你给我
一份感动 一个理由
不疲倦 不脆弱
这世界的永恒不多
让我们也成为一种
情深如海 不移如山
用一生爱不完
我的爱一天比一天更热烈
要给你多些再多些不停歇
让你的生命只有甜和美 OH OH
遗忘该怎么流浪
我的爱一天比一天更热烈
要给你多些再多些不停歇
让恋人钟爱的每一句誓言 OH OH
不再难追 全都实现
...MUSIC ...
心中有爱 人生如歌
唱着欢乐 海阔天空
来去从容 不惹烦忧
有了你 别无求
这世界的永恒不多
让我们也成为一种
情深如海 不移如山
用一生爱不完
我的爱一天比一天更热烈
要给你多些再多些不停歇
让你的生命只有甜和美 OH OH
遗忘该怎么流浪
我的爱一天比一天更热烈
要给你多些再多些不停歇
让恋人钟爱的每一句誓言 OH OH
不再难追 全都实现
我的爱一天比一天更热烈
要给你多些再多些不停歇
让你的生命只有甜和美 OH OH
遗忘该怎么流浪
我的爱一天比一天还要坚决
要给你多些然后再多一些
让恋人钟爱的每一句誓言 OH OH
不再难追 全都实现
i dun have the song(cant find in imeem) so i jus paste the lyrics...haha...
Monday, March 9, 2009
something i wonder...lol
sometimes i wonder...y did i like u in the 1st place?
ur so unpredictable, hard to understand and sometimes weird....
but then i always find the ans at the end
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and that is it is because of all this that i like u.
cheers for a btr tml =)
ur so unpredictable, hard to understand and sometimes weird....
but then i always find the ans at the end
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and that is it is because of all this that i like u.
cheers for a btr tml =)
Sunday, March 8, 2009
lol...im getting additcted at this haha...
http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx
Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. (very true) If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.
Your views on education
Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.(1/2 correct)
The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.
Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. (very true) If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.
Your views on education
Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.(1/2 correct)
The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.
Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
Saturday, March 7, 2009
a song for u xm
An Jing - Jay Chou
i know that u dun have my blog link, and therefore will not come and read, but im still gonna post a song for u...take it as me dedicating this song to u as to represent how i felt when u left me. though many mths have pass, whenever i saw u, i still feel uncomfortable. this is not a hate post, take it as my remembrance to our relationship. though we kept it in silence, its still a fun time. regardless how short it was...that i want to say thank you to u.
this feeling again...
its been a long time since i have this feeling again...its been...let me rewind abit....erm...1 yrs+ le....im not sure anymore...but i noe that im racing against time again...lol...
yst i go sim lim wif meng, suppose to be accompany him look for job for IT show de....lol...sim lim dun have so end up we go suntec try our luck...and lol...we end up going for the career and educational fair 2009, we look thru all the courses that they provide in Uni...and yea...i have set my mind on going to NUS B-tech programme...no not Bio-tech, its Bechelor -technology(mechancical engineering) i want to either learn mechanical or chemical...chemical because its been my interest, mechanical cause it can land me a job anywhere. lol..sry angiie, dun think i will be seeing u in NTU liao unless i go for the business course there hahaha.... =P . B-tech is a part time degree programme so it means i nd to 2 yrs working exp and a dip. at the very least. wif my current gpa...i dun think i stand a chance to go uni le...so might as well i finish my ns then i go for my uni education. i heard its tough...but i will make it. so it means i gotta start saving now lol...for a btr tml bah haha....
oh yea b4 i end this post, i'll do a quick recap of wad happen this this last 2 wks,
-went for the bbq gathering(failed cos of rain)
-wittness my friend's poor jiu liang
-manage to complete driving until 5.01, now waiting for TP test
-found out that test date same as the release of my exam results(fck sia)
-began working again after 2 wks of leave
-pay for feb was measlily(186 nia)
-have alot of plans going on in my mind
-havent tot of hw to carry them out
-mix feelings
wanted to say things but afraid of the possible consequences, i sometimes hate myself for being like that , cant do wad i can, sometimes being a nato, hate myself for being weak and cant comfort others, wan to lend a hand to help but could not do so, wan to be wif some1 but something always crop up....depress is not a word 1 can easily said but yes, i am depress. not wif others but myself, depress over the upcoming results, depress over later todae i go work have to face the supervisor's face again, depress that what i feel might be one-sided...but as i said....if ur not very happy, im willing to exchange my smiles for ur sorrow, may i be the one the share ur burden. this applies not to all but my close friends.
i mayb thinking too much , i may think that i might not have live long and thus, i dun have the right to love any1.(i watch too much drama le lol) , if i were to write a will right now, the 1st one i will put is not to delete this blog. the one thing that can have specific remembrance of myself. lol
sometimes i laugh too much , that it become an irritant to others, that i apologise, cos i am a sorta a cheerful person, on the outside that is. the inside me, is not really sociable, dun really laugh and the usual face is -.- . but whats wrong wif being happy? happy is good =). i wish to see others happy, sadness is but a waste of ur happiness,
roses are red
violets are blue
i have my smiles
keep yours too!
if ur sad
pls dun fret
for i am
here for u
to erase ur sadness
and replace wif happiness
the smile on ur face
is the joy of my life
with each smile u bring
u bright up a day in my life
if ur sad or hurt, pls say so, cos i cant bear seeing a smiling sad person , if u wanna cry , jus let go, i will be ur shoulder, if ur angry and wan to shout out, i will be ur ear, if u nd to punch some1...find that person and take it out...if worst comes to worst, i will be ur punching bag...jus dun punch too hard...i nd to live hahaha....
some words are hurtful,
some words are harsh,
but some of them have a deeper meaning,
than being harsh
some phrases are sweet and nice
but they hide a dagger behind
realise this
that one can onli see
the true meaning behind these phrases
if they are calm and relax
take it to heart and
u fall to their trap
hear and forgt
and u might be a happier person
sry ar...suddenly become so peotic.lol...if that word is considered english -.-
and any case i have written my post for todae might update again later tonite....andi emphasize on the word MIGHT
bb gtg work liao...haiz...
yst i go sim lim wif meng, suppose to be accompany him look for job for IT show de....lol...sim lim dun have so end up we go suntec try our luck...and lol...we end up going for the career and educational fair 2009, we look thru all the courses that they provide in Uni...and yea...i have set my mind on going to NUS B-tech programme...no not Bio-tech, its Bechelor -technology(mechancical engineering) i want to either learn mechanical or chemical...chemical because its been my interest, mechanical cause it can land me a job anywhere. lol..sry angiie, dun think i will be seeing u in NTU liao unless i go for the business course there hahaha.... =P . B-tech is a part time degree programme so it means i nd to 2 yrs working exp and a dip. at the very least. wif my current gpa...i dun think i stand a chance to go uni le...so might as well i finish my ns then i go for my uni education. i heard its tough...but i will make it. so it means i gotta start saving now lol...for a btr tml bah haha....
oh yea b4 i end this post, i'll do a quick recap of wad happen this this last 2 wks,
-went for the bbq gathering(failed cos of rain)
-wittness my friend's poor jiu liang
-manage to complete driving until 5.01, now waiting for TP test
-found out that test date same as the release of my exam results(fck sia)
-began working again after 2 wks of leave
-pay for feb was measlily(186 nia)
-have alot of plans going on in my mind
-havent tot of hw to carry them out
-mix feelings
wanted to say things but afraid of the possible consequences, i sometimes hate myself for being like that , cant do wad i can, sometimes being a nato, hate myself for being weak and cant comfort others, wan to lend a hand to help but could not do so, wan to be wif some1 but something always crop up....depress is not a word 1 can easily said but yes, i am depress. not wif others but myself, depress over the upcoming results, depress over later todae i go work have to face the supervisor's face again, depress that what i feel might be one-sided...but as i said....if ur not very happy, im willing to exchange my smiles for ur sorrow, may i be the one the share ur burden. this applies not to all but my close friends.
i mayb thinking too much , i may think that i might not have live long and thus, i dun have the right to love any1.(i watch too much drama le lol) , if i were to write a will right now, the 1st one i will put is not to delete this blog. the one thing that can have specific remembrance of myself. lol
sometimes i laugh too much , that it become an irritant to others, that i apologise, cos i am a sorta a cheerful person, on the outside that is. the inside me, is not really sociable, dun really laugh and the usual face is -.- . but whats wrong wif being happy? happy is good =). i wish to see others happy, sadness is but a waste of ur happiness,
roses are red
violets are blue
i have my smiles
keep yours too!
if ur sad
pls dun fret
for i am
here for u
to erase ur sadness
and replace wif happiness
the smile on ur face
is the joy of my life
with each smile u bring
u bright up a day in my life
if ur sad or hurt, pls say so, cos i cant bear seeing a smiling sad person , if u wanna cry , jus let go, i will be ur shoulder, if ur angry and wan to shout out, i will be ur ear, if u nd to punch some1...find that person and take it out...if worst comes to worst, i will be ur punching bag...jus dun punch too hard...i nd to live hahaha....
some words are hurtful,
some words are harsh,
but some of them have a deeper meaning,
than being harsh
some phrases are sweet and nice
but they hide a dagger behind
realise this
that one can onli see
the true meaning behind these phrases
if they are calm and relax
take it to heart and
u fall to their trap
hear and forgt
and u might be a happier person
sry ar...suddenly become so peotic.lol...if that word is considered english -.-
and any case i have written my post for todae might update again later tonite....andi emphasize on the word MIGHT
bb gtg work liao...haiz...
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
the song thats nice but makes me emo lol...
gui ji - Jay Chou
怎么隐藏 我的悲伤 失去你的地方
你的发香 散的匆忙 我已经跟不上
闭上眼睛 还能看见 你离去的痕迹
在月光下 一直找寻 那想念的身影
如果说分手 是苦痛的起点
那在终点之前 我愿意再爱一遍
想要对你说的 不敢说的爱
会不会有人 可以明白
我会发着呆 然后忘记你 接着紧紧闭上眼
想着那一天 会有人代替 让我不再想念你
我会发着呆 然后微微笑 接着紧紧闭上眼
又想了一遍 你温柔的脸 在我忘记之前
心里的眼泪 模糊了视线 你已快看不见
this is a nice song...but has it play i think of alot of things...and i jus feel heavy and sad and lonely all of a sudden...i wan u...but will i be able to make u happy? will u accept me?
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