i am tired....just tired.....
i am not satisfied with wad we are right now........my penned up feelings is gonna explode anytime...
Monday, August 31, 2009
Saturday, August 29, 2009
there shld be no more regrets...
....is wad i would really want to say....its not that i dun have any regrets...i have TOO MUCH....
Friday, August 28, 2009
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
Monday, August 24, 2009
random tots again...
to avoid awkwardness, i choose not to tell u my feelings
in order not to lose everything u and i had shared, i choose to seal my heart
in order to maintain the friendship we had, i lie to myself
why??? all for the purpose of not losing u....
if i must bet wad we share in the past to gt u as my gf , then i rather remain as friends
i wonder..........in fact im more worried if we are 2gther! not that its a bad thing...its jus that i dun have a habit of being chatty infront of the person i like...unless i dunwan the situation to be awkward....kinda always failed at it...but its jus that i wanted some1 to be wif me and let me hug...sounds childish, but yea...i would want that feeling...its warmth...u noe ur not alone. BUT i noe that wont happen to some1 like me so i can stop dreaming abt it *slap* *slap* *slap* *slap*
i have a bad memory...i forgt bad and good memories...i dun have impression of passing girls...but i will never forgt hw i met u...i may have forgotten the date...but i know the place.
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haha...yst met angie to have mugging session! 1st time i study so srsly, 5 papers all chiong finish!....actually, thats was not meant to be a mugging session to begin with...she jus met up wif me to give me the ticket for her cca preformance and so i bought 1 thinking "well...since your performing, i will go see" well... she was really hoping that i can go in groups so that she can sell her tix.fast! but! as that week my friends all booked liao...i cant even hold an event myself on that weekend. at 1st when i say i wan...i say onli i go...she go like "=.=" in msn....haha totally ruin mood...i tot at that point, is she trying to hint to me that it would be weird to go alone? so i anticipate this and tell her i wont feel weird...but...i think she is thinking of more mundane stuff....like mass selling the tix...oh well...haha...anyway, she suggest wanna come out meet, and suggested mugging...so i tot "hmm...since mondae is my paper...mugging is a very good idea...could use alittle help from her oso" so we met on sunday to mugged @ wdlands regional library. in the quiet environment, i can fully concentrate on my paper and think....then consult her on afew EZ qn.....b4 library about to close...it is then, i rmb her strap...i wanted to give it to her as a present...nthing special, jus spotted it on natsu matsuri and decided to buy 1 for her....as the name implies...hp straps. lol...i dunno. but i knew i gt the wrong thing for her...sure she wanted a hp strap...but that strap wasnt the strap she wanted...but my gift was kinda rejected...(i hate that feeling but i swallowed it) then library closed so we move to starbucks...there...i put my bags on the table and jus left wif her...totally ignoring the safety, but i trust that the ppl have enuf integrity not to touch things that are not theirs...then when we are waiting for our coffee, a baby carriage fall to the ground...i make a move to help, but angie move faster than me. so i automatically stop. dun ask me y...i jus stop....i hesitated. at that point i REALLY LOOK A RETARD....y did i stone there? i myself do not know...anyway our coffee came and we went back to our seats...i continue to struggle wif my pass yr paper while she read magazines...haha...she said she gt a 10 page essay to finish and hand up tml online...with that said...i felt bad making her wait for me to finish doing my revision....i wanted to say alot of sorries....but in the end i 1/2 do 1/2 talk to her....tell u something...when u talk to me ar...i am the straightforward kind....meaning if u tell me ur friends do stupid things i will definitely say "ur friend's stupid" but i know that the way i say it offends ppl....offends her oso...esp cos i said like that to her good friend....i felt bad, but i cant do anything...cos i am really say wad i felt...i rmb telling her " u can jump down a building or bang a wall, i dun care. jus dun involve me can liao"a mistake i told her that? definitely. then she ask me if WWW and escape and go all in 1 day. haha...i said no...thats not something achievable hahha...cos 2 different theme parks....both offers play all u can when ur in the park. will u stay or will u play randomly and go over to the nxt park? not feasible. but i recommend her wild wild wet.(say all u want abt having ulterior motive or anything...i dun care) cos its fun! onli went once...wif my dad and bro...very fun to play...but anyway......its still deciding....im officially having hols nxt starting thurs and im working on that day to kick off the start of my sem vacation!
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if ever i can tell u my feelings and felt that u are rdy to hear it.i will tell u while holding ur hands, followed by a hug and end wif a kiss <3
in order not to lose everything u and i had shared, i choose to seal my heart
in order to maintain the friendship we had, i lie to myself
why??? all for the purpose of not losing u....
if i must bet wad we share in the past to gt u as my gf , then i rather remain as friends
i wonder..........in fact im more worried if we are 2gther! not that its a bad thing...its jus that i dun have a habit of being chatty infront of the person i like...unless i dunwan the situation to be awkward....kinda always failed at it...but its jus that i wanted some1 to be wif me and let me hug...sounds childish, but yea...i would want that feeling...its warmth...u noe ur not alone. BUT i noe that wont happen to some1 like me so i can stop dreaming abt it *slap* *slap* *slap* *slap*
i have a bad memory...i forgt bad and good memories...i dun have impression of passing girls...but i will never forgt hw i met u...i may have forgotten the date...but i know the place.
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haha...yst met angie to have mugging session! 1st time i study so srsly, 5 papers all chiong finish!....actually, thats was not meant to be a mugging session to begin with...she jus met up wif me to give me the ticket for her cca preformance and so i bought 1 thinking "well...since your performing, i will go see" well... she was really hoping that i can go in groups so that she can sell her tix.fast! but! as that week my friends all booked liao...i cant even hold an event myself on that weekend. at 1st when i say i wan...i say onli i go...she go like "=.=" in msn....haha totally ruin mood...i tot at that point, is she trying to hint to me that it would be weird to go alone? so i anticipate this and tell her i wont feel weird...but...i think she is thinking of more mundane stuff....like mass selling the tix...oh well...haha...anyway, she suggest wanna come out meet, and suggested mugging...so i tot "hmm...since mondae is my paper...mugging is a very good idea...could use alittle help from her oso" so we met on sunday to mugged @ wdlands regional library. in the quiet environment, i can fully concentrate on my paper and think....then consult her on afew EZ qn.....b4 library about to close...it is then, i rmb her strap...i wanted to give it to her as a present...nthing special, jus spotted it on natsu matsuri and decided to buy 1 for her....as the name implies...hp straps. lol...i dunno. but i knew i gt the wrong thing for her...sure she wanted a hp strap...but that strap wasnt the strap she wanted...but my gift was kinda rejected...(i hate that feeling but i swallowed it) then library closed so we move to starbucks...there...i put my bags on the table and jus left wif her...totally ignoring the safety, but i trust that the ppl have enuf integrity not to touch things that are not theirs...then when we are waiting for our coffee, a baby carriage fall to the ground...i make a move to help, but angie move faster than me. so i automatically stop. dun ask me y...i jus stop....i hesitated. at that point i REALLY LOOK A RETARD....y did i stone there? i myself do not know...anyway our coffee came and we went back to our seats...i continue to struggle wif my pass yr paper while she read magazines...haha...she said she gt a 10 page essay to finish and hand up tml online...with that said...i felt bad making her wait for me to finish doing my revision....i wanted to say alot of sorries....but in the end i 1/2 do 1/2 talk to her....tell u something...when u talk to me ar...i am the straightforward kind....meaning if u tell me ur friends do stupid things i will definitely say "ur friend's stupid" but i know that the way i say it offends ppl....offends her oso...esp cos i said like that to her good friend....i felt bad, but i cant do anything...cos i am really say wad i felt...i rmb telling her " u can jump down a building or bang a wall, i dun care. jus dun involve me can liao"a mistake i told her that? definitely. then she ask me if WWW and escape and go all in 1 day. haha...i said no...thats not something achievable hahha...cos 2 different theme parks....both offers play all u can when ur in the park. will u stay or will u play randomly and go over to the nxt park? not feasible. but i recommend her wild wild wet.(say all u want abt having ulterior motive or anything...i dun care) cos its fun! onli went once...wif my dad and bro...very fun to play...but anyway......its still deciding....im officially having hols nxt starting thurs and im working on that day to kick off the start of my sem vacation!
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if ever i can tell u my feelings and felt that u are rdy to hear it.i will tell u while holding ur hands, followed by a hug and end wif a kiss <3
Sunday, August 23, 2009
natsu matsuri!!
haha!! todae went for the natsu matsuri, its a japanese summer festival that's held once every yr...and i gt the chance to gt the ticket(1 is $2) from lala who is part of the organizing com. haha...thank you Olivia!!! haha...meet lala(oli) and fade at bedok mrt station...actually met fade 1st then lala...after that...we go to the meeting point...lol...i mus point out that lala look and sound like a tour guide(lala to group :"ok...later when u all go there...meet up at etc...etc..")haha! then we took a trip down straight to changi japanese school...reach the sch...there is alrdy a long Q...like OMG....but heng we gt tix...aside from kena-ing 1 fucked up secuirty guard OJI-SAN nthing eventful happen.....yet.
went in and waited at the Q...and fanning ourselves...finally, b4 the festival officially starts...we saw a opening festival performance(taiko) which i noted to fade that the lead player looks like she on trance...=P, after that, we went straight to the booth where gt the legendary apple candy, y did i say legendary...cos according to my friend, its rare to find 1 in sg...AND WTF IT SOLD OUT WHEN ME AND FADE ARE LIKE 3 PPL BEHIND...ahhhhh!!!!! have to wait for nxt yr...(note to self : come early,very early) then as expected, there was no more pikachu mask oso le xD. so the whole entire time i was exploring the booth, the games are very fun! haha...the yoyo game...or so they call it...is actually similar to catch a fish in japan...but instead of a paper net...its made up of a hook thats tied by tissue paper, and u are required to hook up the balloons thats inside the pool of water by trying to hook the noose tied rubber thats attached to the balloon. i manage to gt 1 balloon and it manage to last me till i gt home =D nxt i tried to play another game called :senbonbiki or tikam game haha...i manage to win a small prize of a small towel haha...i actually wanted to LARGE prize...and was expecting them to say :"gomeinasai" but instead i gt a cheer from them lol...so i oso play along lor...and smile =D then i proceed to walk around the booths again....drink alsahi beer...initially wanted to try daft...but then i see the amount of foam i sian liao...so i grab the can instead...woots...taste...like beer xD but nicer than tiger? dunno...hated beer...but wanna try out foreign products haha...saw alot of nice stuff....and all this while when im looking at the booths...im looking for something that i can buy for her...something...she will like...so i walk around...i saw a strap thats rather cute...its a cake design...but on the cake it says "for you" . well theres 2 designs for it...one is "for you" the other is "love you"...well...wad u think i choose? thats for me to know, for u to guess...and for her to find out(tml) . i hope she likes it...i admit my taste sometimes is cannot make it one...return home to find her online hahaa...YAY~! miss talking to u....haha...anyway...in the evening, we(lala, ratix, csw, fade and lala's friends and one more person whom i forgt the name le) went to the benches and slack...took pic and goof around...b4 going to the field to enjoy the evening sky...did i mention the sky looks beautiful? cos its really nice todae....then at nite have the bom odori that everybody is waiting for...i 1st time participated in this kind of mass dance and the feeling is great! haha...thanks to lala for the encouragement and psychoing haha oh and oso for teaching me the dance steps (imma noob). after that we go home...every1 is tired...but i am not...cos my mind is somewhere else le...haha...anyway...reach home just when the rain stop temp. (heng ar!) i reach home liao then it begin to pour again....
and...this is the end of my post! shld i add pictures?....nah i dun think so...i will show u when u ask me to bah =DD
nites all~
went in and waited at the Q...and fanning ourselves...finally, b4 the festival officially starts...we saw a opening festival performance(taiko) which i noted to fade that the lead player looks like she on trance...=P, after that, we went straight to the booth where gt the legendary apple candy, y did i say legendary...cos according to my friend, its rare to find 1 in sg...AND WTF IT SOLD OUT WHEN ME AND FADE ARE LIKE 3 PPL BEHIND...ahhhhh!!!!! have to wait for nxt yr...(note to self : come early,very early) then as expected, there was no more pikachu mask oso le xD. so the whole entire time i was exploring the booth, the games are very fun! haha...the yoyo game...or so they call it...is actually similar to catch a fish in japan...but instead of a paper net...its made up of a hook thats tied by tissue paper, and u are required to hook up the balloons thats inside the pool of water by trying to hook the noose tied rubber thats attached to the balloon. i manage to gt 1 balloon and it manage to last me till i gt home =D nxt i tried to play another game called :senbonbiki or tikam game haha...i manage to win a small prize of a small towel haha...i actually wanted to LARGE prize...and was expecting them to say :"gomeinasai" but instead i gt a cheer from them lol...so i oso play along lor...and smile =D then i proceed to walk around the booths again....drink alsahi beer...initially wanted to try daft...but then i see the amount of foam i sian liao...so i grab the can instead...woots...taste...like beer xD but nicer than tiger? dunno...hated beer...but wanna try out foreign products haha...saw alot of nice stuff....and all this while when im looking at the booths...im looking for something that i can buy for her...something...she will like...so i walk around...i saw a strap thats rather cute...its a cake design...but on the cake it says "for you" . well theres 2 designs for it...one is "for you" the other is "love you"...well...wad u think i choose? thats for me to know, for u to guess...and for her to find out(tml) . i hope she likes it...i admit my taste sometimes is cannot make it one...return home to find her online hahaa...YAY~! miss talking to u....haha...anyway...in the evening, we(lala, ratix, csw, fade and lala's friends and one more person whom i forgt the name le) went to the benches and slack...took pic and goof around...b4 going to the field to enjoy the evening sky...did i mention the sky looks beautiful? cos its really nice todae....then at nite have the bom odori that everybody is waiting for...i 1st time participated in this kind of mass dance and the feeling is great! haha...thanks to lala for the encouragement and psychoing haha oh and oso for teaching me the dance steps (imma noob). after that we go home...every1 is tired...but i am not...cos my mind is somewhere else le...haha...anyway...reach home just when the rain stop temp. (heng ar!) i reach home liao then it begin to pour again....
and...this is the end of my post! shld i add pictures?....nah i dun think so...i will show u when u ask me to bah =DD
nites all~
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
haha.....sianz....>.>"...^^(epic randomness)
on mondae i kena running nose....and i really lose all mood to study...so all i did that day was to talk to angie and afew of my jubeat friends...but then mostly chatting wif her...haha...make me laugh when i told her i have been sneezing the whole day and she said "mus be some1 thinking of u" cos if u sneeze, isnt cos some1 is scolding u? hahaha...very cute sia...well...in response to her reply i told her cant be....cos i dun think any1 is thinking about me at that time...didnt think any1 will oso...but then wad she said jus brighten me up...she said "the person who likes u is always in ur face"....now...this sentence carries a hint...did i gt the hint? or issit she jus trying to cheer me up....nonetheless, it works...haha...and all i can thnk of is that sentence wondering wad it means....dam, i feel like slping while blogging this.
then comes tuesday. the day my dad came back from sabah...went to welcome him back...haha..these few days keep running to changi airport haha...had dinner wif the whole family...then cab back...so tired i was that i slp in the cab...haha...
i dunno y , but im silently looking forward to seeing her online again...but then she didnt...miss talking to her liao...hhaha...then i found out i cant go my blog url....was frust the whole night becos of it...cos i can go blogger.com but i cant go thelamerof1989.blogspot.com....zZZzzzz=.=". yea....my running nose recovered after 1 day of rest...my mother said the usual cause :slp late >.>" haha...anyway...while thinking of her...i gt an imspiration abt eye candies haha... some of u may have seen it in facebook le...but i will post it up here :
i like eye candies...but i will only take urs because u r the sweetest among them all.
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then comes todae...realise the prob is my internet prob...now in sch i can go my blog link, yay!(many thanks to amelia for her advice) so now im blogging away. THEN i go mug...might continue later on when i gt home...hope i can go into my blog...
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*epic randomness time*
i reason wif myself that i think too much...that i interpret it wrong, but srsly i dunno....if i have then i would have given myself false hope,if i did not...then im confuse le...wad am i hoping for?
i am always in the wrong place at the right time, another sentence will be "shit happens whenever im wif some1"
haiz...feel like slping now...
then comes tuesday. the day my dad came back from sabah...went to welcome him back...haha..these few days keep running to changi airport haha...had dinner wif the whole family...then cab back...so tired i was that i slp in the cab...haha...
i dunno y , but im silently looking forward to seeing her online again...but then she didnt...miss talking to her liao...hhaha...then i found out i cant go my blog url....was frust the whole night becos of it...cos i can go blogger.com but i cant go thelamerof1989.blogspot.com....zZZzzzz=.=". yea....my running nose recovered after 1 day of rest...my mother said the usual cause :slp late >.>" haha...anyway...while thinking of her...i gt an imspiration abt eye candies haha... some of u may have seen it in facebook le...but i will post it up here :
i like eye candies...but i will only take urs because u r the sweetest among them all.
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then comes todae...realise the prob is my internet prob...now in sch i can go my blog link, yay!(many thanks to amelia for her advice) so now im blogging away. THEN i go mug...might continue later on when i gt home...hope i can go into my blog...
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*epic randomness time*
i reason wif myself that i think too much...that i interpret it wrong, but srsly i dunno....if i have then i would have given myself false hope,if i did not...then im confuse le...wad am i hoping for?
i am always in the wrong place at the right time, another sentence will be "shit happens whenever im wif some1"
haiz...feel like slping now...
Monday, August 17, 2009
tots again...and a summary of yst and todae...
hmm....thinking of things again...mind always in turmoil....wif tots zooming in and out of my mind like a 2 way traffic...can onli catch some...yst's event was rather short and sweet...so i will jus briefly sum it up yea?
yst(15/8),
lets see....wad happen...actually nthing really happen that day except at night...1pm i go work until 10pm...its been a long time since i work this long haha...but anyway...nthing eventful happen during my work except that when its closing, i manage to finish my closing task(sweep floor) very VERY quickly...then go toilet with my eyepatch to fix my eye...came back to shop to shock every1 wif my eyepatch haha...but i dun care sia...i was rushing liao...so i jus grab my bag and chiong out....wanna hail cab but cant seem to find any at sunset way...so i tried to hail at SIM...not bad...after 5 mins 1 cab arrive...told him changi airport T3...then on the way to airport i receive a sms from hollowsnarl telling me they going home le dun go+ lol(oh yea btw, i go airport is to welcome back chaser and kurobe ) dam dulan...thats the kind of sms any1 will gt SIAN and dulan abt esp when they are on their way there VIA CAB....im not angry abt the go home part, i dulan he ask me go home -.-(this explains his apology on my Cbox). then after i reach airport i am determine is stone there for awhile b4 going home...then i heard that lala, ratix, noobfade and rotation were having supper @popeye...but i tot its the T3 branch...then i go find no ppl then found out its T1...-.-" oh well...then elle join us soon after i arrive...chat abit...then go home...as its alrdy 12+ i wanted to cab back...but lala said cab back from airport gt xtra charge+midnight charge...very expensive...i think for awhile and agree that its not worth to take at airport...then she ask if every1 wants to stay over at her house for the night. every1 agree...cept me haha...wanted to gt home + im very tired after working...so after i alight from the bus at bedok...i took a cab back...and here is the interesting part...i share a cab wif a stranger...at 1st im cautious over him...so late le...nver go home stay there loiter...then say wanna share cab...ask me where im going and agree to wherever i go oso(i said bukit batok and he said bukit batok oso-.-") so in the end i cab to central and walk home....safer that way haha...in the cab...i found out that he is from dunearn sec. doing his N lvls now...having prelims(still go out...not scared fail one-.-) . then i ask him if he gt learn poa and i start talking like 70 yr old grandfather abt my times...(when i recall...i really feel dumb). when i reach home i actually wanted to tell my exp wif my mother de...but then i recall all those moments i tried telling her this kind of exp. she would explode in fits....and starts telling wad not to share things wif strangers la...y nver listen la....in then end i would alway bth and say :HIYA DAM IRRITATING LA....SHLD NOT HAVE TELL U...so nw i dont...to avoid trouble...dam tired le still have to listen to possible lecture...dam stupid and irritating...cos wad i nd is a listening ear, not a lecture...jitao ruin mood le...so i let it stay in me so that i can blog it out.
that day slpt at 3+ again cos of unlimited tots thats zooming in and out of my mind
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todae(16/8),
hmm....weather was nice so i slpt until 11am+ was gonna meet my friends(morgen and daniel) to go comi-con@ 12pm but then in the end i reach at abt 12.40pm....morgen reach at 12.50+...then we took a bus to marina square and we walk down to suntec....and when we reach the convention hall, i saw the cosplayers...AND I SAW HATSUNE MIKU AND REN<3....anyway...some>.<" then after that we saw a epic performance which is rather good...then we go off to have dinner at dbg...after that we go watch GI: JOE the rise of cobra. nice show wif alot of funny scenes...yea...then after the show we headed for the bus stop to go home....reach home->drop bag->switch on lappy-> on msn+facebook+manga+anime->slack...then go slp at 3am+ again...haha
mayb will blog abt todae depend on mood bah...=))
yst(15/8),
lets see....wad happen...actually nthing really happen that day except at night...1pm i go work until 10pm...its been a long time since i work this long haha...but anyway...nthing eventful happen during my work except that when its closing, i manage to finish my closing task(sweep floor) very VERY quickly...then go toilet with my eyepatch to fix my eye...came back to shop to shock every1 wif my eyepatch haha...but i dun care sia...i was rushing liao...so i jus grab my bag and chiong out....wanna hail cab but cant seem to find any at sunset way...so i tried to hail at SIM...not bad...after 5 mins 1 cab arrive...told him changi airport T3...then on the way to airport i receive a sms from hollowsnarl telling me they going home le dun go+ lol(oh yea btw, i go airport is to welcome back chaser and kurobe ) dam dulan...thats the kind of sms any1 will gt SIAN and dulan abt esp when they are on their way there VIA CAB....im not angry abt the go home part, i dulan he ask me go home -.-(this explains his apology on my Cbox). then after i reach airport i am determine is stone there for awhile b4 going home...then i heard that lala, ratix, noobfade and rotation were having supper @popeye...but i tot its the T3 branch...then i go find no ppl then found out its T1...-.-" oh well...then elle join us soon after i arrive...chat abit...then go home...as its alrdy 12+ i wanted to cab back...but lala said cab back from airport gt xtra charge+midnight charge...very expensive...i think for awhile and agree that its not worth to take at airport...then she ask if every1 wants to stay over at her house for the night. every1 agree...cept me haha...wanted to gt home + im very tired after working...so after i alight from the bus at bedok...i took a cab back...and here is the interesting part...i share a cab wif a stranger...at 1st im cautious over him...so late le...nver go home stay there loiter...then say wanna share cab...ask me where im going and agree to wherever i go oso(i said bukit batok and he said bukit batok oso-.-") so in the end i cab to central and walk home....safer that way haha...in the cab...i found out that he is from dunearn sec. doing his N lvls now...having prelims(still go out...not scared fail one-.-) . then i ask him if he gt learn poa and i start talking like 70 yr old grandfather abt my times...(when i recall...i really feel dumb). when i reach home i actually wanted to tell my exp wif my mother de...but then i recall all those moments i tried telling her this kind of exp. she would explode in fits....and starts telling wad not to share things wif strangers la...y nver listen la....in then end i would alway bth and say :HIYA DAM IRRITATING LA....SHLD NOT HAVE TELL U...so nw i dont...to avoid trouble...dam tired le still have to listen to possible lecture...dam stupid and irritating...cos wad i nd is a listening ear, not a lecture...jitao ruin mood le...so i let it stay in me so that i can blog it out.
that day slpt at 3+ again cos of unlimited tots thats zooming in and out of my mind
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todae(16/8),
hmm....weather was nice so i slpt until 11am+ was gonna meet my friends(morgen and daniel) to go comi-con@ 12pm but then in the end i reach at abt 12.40pm....morgen reach at 12.50+...then we took a bus to marina square and we walk down to suntec....and when we reach the convention hall, i saw the cosplayers...AND I SAW HATSUNE MIKU AND REN<3....anyway...some>.<" then after that we saw a epic performance which is rather good...then we go off to have dinner at dbg...after that we go watch GI: JOE the rise of cobra. nice show wif alot of funny scenes...yea...then after the show we headed for the bus stop to go home....reach home->drop bag->switch on lappy-> on msn+facebook+manga+anime->slack...then go slp at 3am+ again...haha
mayb will blog abt todae depend on mood bah...=))
Friday, August 14, 2009
random thoughts that flows into my mind these pass few days
sometimes i wonder if i make a good bf...u know...wad ppl say to me really affect me de...and when i reflect on wad i did b4...i feel more guilty, cos i myself know that sometimes if i noe its not within my limit i wont try to do it...going out wif me oso will jus gt boring haha...not that i know hw to gt the situation interesting...but then i always feel that the moment of u stare at me i stare at u, or when its jus us and ur listening to mp3 and im playing psp...u noe...the gap...i dun like the gap but i cant stop it from existing...another thing im worried abt is my determination...how far would i go to get her? unlike most guys, im NOT the romantic kind...cos i cant think of sweet words to please u....if i wanna find fault it would be that whenever i said nice words to girls like "ur pretty" they will look at me as if im a disease...thats when im young...now? hm...they reject my comment and i feel that i spoke the wrong thing....and i really hate the phrase "dont touch me" but i gt that 2 times in a row le...felt really hurt...but din show my expression. cos how to i say this...its like i am not fit to touch u liddat....i understand that being a girl means that not every1 except ur close ones can touch u(touch as in the normal kind, not the hanky panky stuff). which is y i do not anyhow jus hold any girl's hand. in fact i was so afriad that u all might flare up that i always said sry if i even jus brush past u....i am srsly afraid. i always see other guys have no problem around their girl-friends...but i cant seem to bring myself to do that...haha...too many restricted areas le...well...this is my tot la...im so afraid of touching girls that there is a point of time when i thought im gay >.>"(sound stupid right?) but then that thought went into the rubbish bin when i found that i like this girl, i can 100% tell u that im NOT GAY cos when she is around, i have the xing fu feeling, something i have not felt since a long long time ago...
im oso rather anything-kind of guy, meaning if u ask if i wan something i would say anything...cos i believe, take wadeva that comes . though it also means im a guy which dun like to make decision...(its bad for image btw) and sometimes i want to make decisions..but then mostly due to my laziness, i will jus say anything...
ending sentence: will i regret posting wad i have thought? nope i wont
im oso rather anything-kind of guy, meaning if u ask if i wan something i would say anything...cos i believe, take wadeva that comes . though it also means im a guy which dun like to make decision...(its bad for image btw) and sometimes i want to make decisions..but then mostly due to my laziness, i will jus say anything...
ending sentence: will i regret posting wad i have thought? nope i wont
zz...tio shoot...>.>
zzzz my boss todae very wu liao...i say i go airport 6am to send friend off she tot he is my special some1...>.>"(hello, im not gay and i have a girl i like)
Thursday, August 13, 2009
one word : slpy ~_~
truly siansational...haha....yst slp at 2.30am and wake up at 6am to meet elle to go to changi airport to send chaser and kurobe off...overall, i slpt onli 4hrs...then i go airport...go stone...then see them off.yea...thats a summary of wad happen just now..haha...after we send them out of sg, me, elle, k.h and dj*flash went to mac @ T1 to eat breakfast...listening to their stories and exp. is rather interesting hahaha....had big breakfast wif my coffee upgraded to cuppochino(something i havent done in ages)and STILL feels slpy...omg...after that we went dbg play afew rounds of jubeat then we go sch(for me,kh and dj*flash)and home(for elle). i totally sian cos todae i dunno whether g lesson anot but then judging by yst. i dun think so...and so here i am blogging away in school. y cant i use my own lappy>? cos my precious lappy is currently servicing.will gt her back on fri bah haha...after this blogging im gonna find a place to slp! so tht 5pm gt energy to work...omg...haha wish me luk later when i work and pray i dun fall aslp while churning ice cream X.X"
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haiz...i dunno abt this feeling...i noe that i like her but then, wad issit that i feel? i dun really gt mad and gt all selfish cos i onli want u...cos i feel that there shld be freedom and dun really control wad ppl like to do la...if u wan to go, go. i dun really mind unless wad u did really affect me. even if wad u said did hurt me, if its minor i wont take it to heart...(i wonder y am i typing all this out when all this is jus my tots,we din start in the beginning) with that said...i am now given myself a choice. to disappear silently without u noticing, or shld i still keep communicating wif u? well....a part of me wans to disappear from ur life. the other part of me wans to say hi to u...sometimes...knowing too much info is a bad thing. are u trying to hint me something? if it is i think i gt the hint. the other day when we go out...i wanted to say something abt u de...but then it seems like my tongue gt stuck or something and i cant bring myself to say out...but now wif the cover of a blog...i will just be straight forward , that day,when i look at ur face, i was captured by ur cuteness. at that moment, i jus wanna look at u.my mind was blank, all the word i can generate out of my brain is "u look...more..more...____" actually wad i wanna say is that u look stunning...(though i mus admit ur clothes doesnt match wad i said) but thats wad i tot...but then when i return home i ask myself if i am really worth ur time...though a majority of my feelings said NO...i am not sure if i shld give up....though i noe ur probably gonna read this sooner or later...this is jus wad i feel...if it becomes awkward to speak wif me again becos of this post then i will slowly but surely disappear from ur life.
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well i shall mia for 2wks bah...nd to study for exams le...srsly...math and thermo, omg...>.<
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haiz...i dunno abt this feeling...i noe that i like her but then, wad issit that i feel? i dun really gt mad and gt all selfish cos i onli want u...cos i feel that there shld be freedom and dun really control wad ppl like to do la...if u wan to go, go. i dun really mind unless wad u did really affect me. even if wad u said did hurt me, if its minor i wont take it to heart...(i wonder y am i typing all this out when all this is jus my tots,we din start in the beginning) with that said...i am now given myself a choice. to disappear silently without u noticing, or shld i still keep communicating wif u? well....a part of me wans to disappear from ur life. the other part of me wans to say hi to u...sometimes...knowing too much info is a bad thing. are u trying to hint me something? if it is i think i gt the hint. the other day when we go out...i wanted to say something abt u de...but then it seems like my tongue gt stuck or something and i cant bring myself to say out...but now wif the cover of a blog...i will just be straight forward , that day,when i look at ur face, i was captured by ur cuteness. at that moment, i jus wanna look at u.my mind was blank, all the word i can generate out of my brain is "u look...more..more...____" actually wad i wanna say is that u look stunning...(though i mus admit ur clothes doesnt match wad i said) but thats wad i tot...but then when i return home i ask myself if i am really worth ur time...though a majority of my feelings said NO...i am not sure if i shld give up....though i noe ur probably gonna read this sooner or later...this is jus wad i feel...if it becomes awkward to speak wif me again becos of this post then i will slowly but surely disappear from ur life.
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well i shall mia for 2wks bah...nd to study for exams le...srsly...math and thermo, omg...>.<
Saturday, August 8, 2009
had this thought when i was going home from work
im now exteremely tired....my eyes feels like clsing and yet..here i am blogging away...wasting my life infront of the com....haaha....in any case my post for todae is abt wad i tot of life(again)
many a times i would say i wan this...i wan that...i wish i had this...i wish i had that...if onli i can....if onli i could...but in the end...those are but words...meaningless words...wads impt is not i wan...but in fact i get. case only when u manage to get something then its worth mentioning...i WANT to have a car...but how do i GET one? ans : money solution : i WILL save money...of cos...this is all my thoughts...i nd to gt my plans into action. but alot of things are interuppting me and preventing me to put my plan into action.
getting on another topic, im now crazy over project diva...a music game thats sang by hatsune miku, she is a vocaloid(meaning not a real person) and the full combos are EXTREMELY hard to get....which somehow make me link them up wif business...haha...cos when i chiong until 156 combos then i break...everything is gone...everything i have work for has turn to naught.this, i think is very similar to business...u can gain alot of things thru many yrs...but sometimes all it takes to lose everything might even onli need 1 day.the same applies wif life...u wont know if ur gonna die tml...haiz...
seems that i shld stop dreaming le...i was stupid not to take the hint...
many a times i would say i wan this...i wan that...i wish i had this...i wish i had that...if onli i can....if onli i could...but in the end...those are but words...meaningless words...wads impt is not i wan...but in fact i get. case only when u manage to get something then its worth mentioning...i WANT to have a car...but how do i GET one? ans : money solution : i WILL save money...of cos...this is all my thoughts...i nd to gt my plans into action. but alot of things are interuppting me and preventing me to put my plan into action.
getting on another topic, im now crazy over project diva...a music game thats sang by hatsune miku, she is a vocaloid(meaning not a real person) and the full combos are EXTREMELY hard to get....which somehow make me link them up wif business...haha...cos when i chiong until 156 combos then i break...everything is gone...everything i have work for has turn to naught.this, i think is very similar to business...u can gain alot of things thru many yrs...but sometimes all it takes to lose everything might even onli need 1 day.the same applies wif life...u wont know if ur gonna die tml...haiz...
seems that i shld stop dreaming le...i was stupid not to take the hint...
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
i am thinking again hahahhahaha
now is....2.53am...round up to 3am bah...again im slping late again...haiz...but in any case im going to blog this down b4 going to slp...like always...i will compile yst and todae's event together in 1 post haha...here goes...1st up! yesterday....
hmm...yea...yst will be lasat sunday hehe...i was suppose to be helping my relative move house, but i kinda overslpt...end up onli my mom go...my bro wan go but he complain headache...so stay at home...i was preping to go out le...to buy lunch...so i ride my bicycle to gombak and dabao prata...very nice and very ex...8.20 sia...for 2 egg&cheese and 2 cheese prata haha...then buy chicken rice for my bro...then after that i ride back home again and rest...then leave the house at arnd 5+...reach dbg zonex at arnd 6+. the zonex at dbg is stuffy and hot...i actually manage to sweat when playing jubeat! but i chiong to class A2 nonetheless...then play afew more rounds b4 going iluma find elle...hollow wanted to go dbg...but i left the place le...so he later join me at iluma hahaa...went iluma and saw ratix, fuyu, elle, lala and august...and afew other jubeat guys...all very high de...play jubeat until abit sian cos no eamuse yet...so me, august and hollow decide to play ddrX...hmm...b4 we did that.....wad was it? ah yes...lala drag elle up to play ddr wif her hahaha...dam fun...then after that is august and some other guy...lushy i think...then my turn...i play ddr wif hollow as usual...forgt whether i gt dance wif august anot...lol...dance true love, doLL(my fav) and dynamite rave(air special).last song make my leg really high hahaha...then after 3 sets i finally give up and go mac wif lala,elle,august and hollow...then we go mac and settle down...beside the table is a glass window(impt info). then actually initially onli gt 5 ppl go eat de...then in comes fuyu...after that folo by ratix and cws...well...i cant really rmb wad happen that day...cos my memory when we are at mac is jus filled wif lala's laughter haha...she has the most epic laughter i had ever heard..so open...so contagious...she laugh we all oso laugh...she will be like: "HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA"(gasps for air)"HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!"
i told them chaser's expression when he met revely online, she oso LMAO.....i mean literally...if its not for the fact that she did not roll on the floor laughing...i will srsly put rofl xD....hey lala...if ur reading this...this is a compliment...not shooting u ok :P...then we stone and chat until abt 11+...then realise nd to go le...me and hollow figure out that theres still time for ddr..(i gave him the reason:i nd to digest) haha...so we go spam 3 sets again....not bad...i gt improve wor....hahahahaha....then after we finish playing...me and hollow head down to catch the supposedly last train haha...feeling very very thirsty...alight at gombak to buy 3 bottles of drink(7-11 gt offer) i buy green tea, lemon tea and apple tea. gulp down green tea...then reach home to finish off the lemon tea but jus as i finish drinking i suddenly feel that my stomach having war again...then i note to self :green tea and lemom tea [s]DO NOT[/s] match well...then after i finsih off my things and prep for tml(todae).
todae : ok...im tired...so i will try to keep it short...stone during tutorial...have my last quiz...then no more tutorial liao...after that i stone at ourspace to do Emat revision...i finally study that module after so long...study as in srsly study...then find the paper okok...not easy but no hard oso...esp the MCQ...after my test i go bugis find elle and saw 1 hogger...tmd...lol...quite brazen la...tong tokens like he own the whole tka like that...haha...happen to met rin and lynn haha! shock tio cos i din noe its him when i turn arnd...i tot i saw a familiar face...then i turn and stare at his face b4 waving at him enthusiastically haha...then i stone for awhile b4 going upstairs...i plan to eat at BB but looking at the time...like nthing to eat liao when reach BB so i jus order my dinner@pasta mania...then go home...and that basically sums up my day haha...okok...its near 4am liao...(shock) nites!
hmm...yea...yst will be lasat sunday hehe...i was suppose to be helping my relative move house, but i kinda overslpt...end up onli my mom go...my bro wan go but he complain headache...so stay at home...i was preping to go out le...to buy lunch...so i ride my bicycle to gombak and dabao prata...very nice and very ex...8.20 sia...for 2 egg&cheese and 2 cheese prata haha...then buy chicken rice for my bro...then after that i ride back home again and rest...then leave the house at arnd 5+...reach dbg zonex at arnd 6+. the zonex at dbg is stuffy and hot...i actually manage to sweat when playing jubeat! but i chiong to class A2 nonetheless...then play afew more rounds b4 going iluma find elle...hollow wanted to go dbg...but i left the place le...so he later join me at iluma hahaa...went iluma and saw ratix, fuyu, elle, lala and august...and afew other jubeat guys...all very high de...play jubeat until abit sian cos no eamuse yet...so me, august and hollow decide to play ddrX...hmm...b4 we did that.....wad was it? ah yes...lala drag elle up to play ddr wif her hahaha...dam fun...then after that is august and some other guy...lushy i think...then my turn...i play ddr wif hollow as usual...forgt whether i gt dance wif august anot...lol...dance true love, doLL(my fav) and dynamite rave(air special).last song make my leg really high hahaha...then after 3 sets i finally give up and go mac wif lala,elle,august and hollow...then we go mac and settle down...beside the table is a glass window(impt info). then actually initially onli gt 5 ppl go eat de...then in comes fuyu...after that folo by ratix and cws...well...i cant really rmb wad happen that day...cos my memory when we are at mac is jus filled wif lala's laughter haha...she has the most epic laughter i had ever heard..so open...so contagious...she laugh we all oso laugh...she will be like: "HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA"(gasps for air)"HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!"
i told them chaser's expression when he met revely online, she oso LMAO.....i mean literally...if its not for the fact that she did not roll on the floor laughing...i will srsly put rofl xD....hey lala...if ur reading this...this is a compliment...not shooting u ok :P...then we stone and chat until abt 11+...then realise nd to go le...me and hollow figure out that theres still time for ddr..(i gave him the reason:i nd to digest) haha...so we go spam 3 sets again....not bad...i gt improve wor....hahahahaha....then after we finish playing...me and hollow head down to catch the supposedly last train haha...feeling very very thirsty...alight at gombak to buy 3 bottles of drink(7-11 gt offer) i buy green tea, lemon tea and apple tea. gulp down green tea...then reach home to finish off the lemon tea but jus as i finish drinking i suddenly feel that my stomach having war again...then i note to self :green tea and lemom tea [s]DO NOT[/s] match well...then after i finsih off my things and prep for tml(todae).
todae : ok...im tired...so i will try to keep it short...stone during tutorial...have my last quiz...then no more tutorial liao...after that i stone at ourspace to do Emat revision...i finally study that module after so long...study as in srsly study...then find the paper okok...not easy but no hard oso...esp the MCQ...after my test i go bugis find elle and saw 1 hogger...tmd...lol...quite brazen la...tong tokens like he own the whole tka like that...haha...happen to met rin and lynn haha! shock tio cos i din noe its him when i turn arnd...i tot i saw a familiar face...then i turn and stare at his face b4 waving at him enthusiastically haha...then i stone for awhile b4 going upstairs...i plan to eat at BB but looking at the time...like nthing to eat liao when reach BB so i jus order my dinner@pasta mania...then go home...and that basically sums up my day haha...okok...its near 4am liao...(shock) nites!
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