a tiring 2 days

both days that i did not update is not becos i have nthing to tell u but its becos im too tired to write liao....even right now...tml i have a big day...well...but i have been wanting to write this for awhile le...i found this phrase interesting :"one man's for himself" dunno whether if its true anot but then...i like it...as it means you are alone in this world...the world we live in is a cruel and realistic world no such thing as a 2nd chance no such thing as giving u leeway...and u are alone...I am alone...in this realistic world...from my point of view, there is no such thing as best of friends to the extent of brotherhood. ppl guide u but nt help u...and i uphold the basic spy principle. nver trust anyone/anything either in games or real word...scary...

shall stop here foer today and cont. when i have time?

signing off:the lamer of 1989, [L-@-M-E-R]

a simple brain test....

i was reading other ppl de blog when i came across this test which reminds me of a brain test by my lecturers :

the following test is test to let u noe whether u use ur left or right brain...

heres the test :

1.hold ur hands together, as if u are praying. look at ur hands, if u see

left thumb is below the right thumb~~~~~> left brain
right thumb is below the left thumb~~~~~> right brain

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2. fold ur arms in front of u (as if u are angry)

right arm above left arm~~~~~~> left brain
left arm above right arm~~~~~~> right brain

base on 1+2(order important), below is the interpretation of your personality:

right-left :
considerate, traditional ,indirect type can instinctively read other's emotion, and respond friendly by natures.Although not very into taking initiatives in moving forward, but this person will always take a step back in supporting others.Stable personality and considerate, give others a being protected feeling.But the weakness is they cannot say no;regardless how unwilling they are, they will take care of others.

right-right :
loves challenges type straightforward.once they decided on one thing, will take action right away.Very curious and loves challenges.Dare to face dangers without thinking through(sometimes foolishly). their weakness is that they dun listen to others,will filter in only what they want to hear in a conversation, and very subjective.However,because of their straightforward attitude, they tend to be fairly popular.

left-left :
Dedicated,cold,perfectionist , Very logical in all aspects. the only way to defeat(or win over)him/her is through reasons.Has alot of prides, and feeling strongly about doing the right thing. If they are your friends, they are trustworthy.However,if they are your opponents, they will be very though to deal with.Because they can be very 'anal' as a perfectionist, they usually leave a bad impression of being hard to deal with on first met.

left-right :
likes to take care of others,leader type.Has a cool and keen obvervation ability to see through situations, yet still can be considerate in others needs.Because of their cool and clam nature, and strong sense of responsibility, they tend to become the head of a group.Popular among people.However,they may be able to help themselves in meddling because they want to take care ofothers too much.Very concernabout how people view them, and always on alert

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those who have view my blog pls write which brain u use left or right can if u wan to jiao wif me...write no brain oso can :P for your info...i figure that im of the left-left type so im kinda left brained...which means my right brain is still fresh?


haha...did not like the last thing it say abt bad impression but overall its kinda accurate cos...yea....i can be cold...not the cold u gt on a rainy day or when the temperature drops wad my coldness means of my eagerness to convers wif u...when im cold(wu qing) i will shoot people right in the face for all i care...when i snapped, i dun care if u are a girl/boy/lesbo/gay or anything...including insects..yes..curse me for all i care...so...im pleaing to you all that know me not to provoke to the extreme..espacially with matters regarding relationships...i am particularly sensitive to that topic...dun insult /said bad things or joke about anything concerning me and my girl OR ELSE....

but i dun wan to get physical...nver realli did believe in that stuff..thats y im training my mouth to shoot and shoot wif logic, and with style(pure xia-laness :P)
can be lame at times(though most of the time) but wad i said have all been through my brain scan 1st b4 exiting through my mouth...therefore sometimes i can talk 1/2 way and stop to correct or jus fumbled...disagreeing with logic...

another normal day....

today gt up at arnd 8.30am...nice to noe that it stopped raining...but din go gym cos...i was slping? and so i continue my daily routine...brush teeth..etc...and pack up for sch nw making sure i had my laptop wif me...after yst incident...math lesson was uneventful except that the lecturer misplace his txt. bk...lol everyone had their bad days...i had it too..most of the time...can sort of say im numb to its effects liao...and so morning was passed without much thing to say or add abt...then came lunch...we ate at SIM aka canteen 5 i order char kuay tiao...nt bad...no hum..gt replace by prawns..nice..i nver liked hums/cockles..oso forgtten when i started hating eating cockles...since pri 5 i suppose...since then i hate eating hums or any shelled seafood except for crab,prawns,lobster and scallop hehe im an expensive eater...can clear out a complete set of crab( if possible i wanna try sri lankan and Alaskan king crab then i solo the crab for u to see :P)anyway...after lunch i saw some ppl from SIM dressing in howlloween costumes 1 of them dress as a western death god...i sid to my friend..."thats so fake u wan giv me a robe wif a longer hood and gt me a scythe, then i will wear it without any complains :D" yea...well...in anime point of view i whld prefer a zampaktou... :P but heck after that amusement was over and was bck to study and practical which is electrical(again) and i saw breadboard and oscillioscope i sian 1/2 liao....total S-I-A-N sia...haiz...after that we had early release by our tcher and so me and my friend took this opportunities to chiong autoCad i gt problems loading sia...wtf lor...then sian..but manage to complete it within 15mins then we rush to our final lesson engineering mechanics...the lecturer was very guai lan 1 talk alot abt dip holders hard to find job and like to use sarcastic remarks not to us but the whole class most of the time..lol...there was one phrase which he likes to repeat which always makes the class wakes up and pay attention...wads his phrase? ~~>"lecturers are paid to teach you , but not to let you understand" which simply means he will jus teach wad he is meant to teach and nthing more nthing less...and screen through the ppt slides like a rollerblade...fast...nearly cant catch up...then after sch(finally!) stay bck at library to do finish my autoCAD so as to prove the god-damned lecturer wrng...wrng to say that i cant catch up...and after doing finish the CAD exercises and pass it up through the internet..i went home...took 985 and during the journey home im still worried abt the engineering mechanics and so i took out my txt. book and started revising...all the way till i reach my destination...then went home...gt a suprising news that my bro who is in NA(tech) was promoted to NA(acad) it was a great news to us well...im bad at praising and so the only thing i could say is "congrats~!" failed as an older brother huh...cant even give praises to my bro...haiz...i was the direct opp. of my bro...he is a pro at praising ppl while i dun...everytime my mum cook something nice i cant bring myself to say it was delicious! all i do was to keep my mouth shut and say nthing...when my mum ask y i did nt praise like my bro did i said "if i did not complain, then its delicious /acceptable" so there isn't much to comment abt unless the dish is my favourite or its exceptionally delicious...haiz...sua...dun wan to talk too much abt it...anyway after dinner i went to do my MOL(math on-line) and finally finished the topic 40mins ago...thinking of playing maple but then gotta slp and since i wanna update regularly i here writing...


hope tml wont be too boring...as tml onli gt 2 modules...eg 2 and AEL , both lectures and so i hope tml i wont fall aslp...but then mus depend de...if i ever gt bored i can always look at her in my hp as her smile is like an exilir to me..makes me feel...happy...nt bored..though she is not there in person...her pic and memories of her will always be in my heart...<3

kz....c wads new tml then so till the nxt update nightz ;)

signing off:
the lamer of year 1989,[L-@-M-E-R]

wad a day

today have been well...tiring...and i mus hav gt on the wrng side of the bed cos i did nt bring my laptop!! damned...cos i gt my info wrng anf thought that today no nd lappy...a mistake and the lecturer very kiang told me that it will be very hard to catch up...F him la...i loan from my friend de lappy and do cos he say let me do while he slps...ok lor...lol...then its like tml or shld i say later today i go sch setup the harddisk network...simple task...cant catch up? try me..lai...then after this was my ael lesson..the tutorial was...well...short and sweet...much to my delight...then we have lunch break and u wont believe the queue in canteen 2 took me abt 10mins to gt myself a bowl of mince meat noodle/meepok i buy from that stall nt becos the food is nice but becos the queue there is more decent...the rest could actually giv me no appetite to eat cos....eat wad?! jus imagine...u gt a miserable 1hr break....then u hav to travel for 5mins then find place for another 5mins after that u hav to queue for 10-15mins how much time left? hmm..lets see....30-5-5-10=10mins...wtf eat wad? then even if u are able to chiong finish...wad abt walking bck to ur study blk? haiz...the thought of all this can throw one's eppetite to the bin and wait for dinner...anyway...after the break i gt practical lesson which is interesting cos im doing milling...something i hav nver done b4(dropped D&T when im sec3) and yea...nice progress nthing gone wrng...yet...lol...hope nthing will go wrng...dun wan to lose my life when i jus found someone that i wan to be 4ever...the workshop is nt bad the male toilet is a scene lol...i went in and there was 1 broken mirror i told my friend...hey the guy that broke that mirror must have failed this module and smash his "masterpiece" onto the mirror then my another friend come in to wash his hands...this friend of mine aka terrorist was a gun fanatic i saw him and goof around saying no la i gt btr explanation this mirror was broken when he wanted to spray his AK-47 arnd the toilet but onli left 1 bullet and so this is is result...lol...he sian 1/2 and we rofl...after that we pack up and went hme...i was thinking of meeting xm on the way hme so take the excuse to walk her home but then she did nt appear...sad...nvm...i shall wait till nov 13 where i will hav something unexpected for her...a present..hehe...cant tell nw cos i dunno her expression...hee~!

kk.,,,im gg off to bed tml c if raining anot if not i go gym if gt then i slack until 8.30am :P :D

so till the nxt time i update...nightz ;)

signing off:
the lamer of year 1989 [L-@-M-E-R]

a new sem starts

so fast....a whole new sem starts again this time wif more practical than theory...thank god? lol...today i got a taste of the autoCAD that some of my friends dreaded...well..nt much of a problem for me as i as roughly manage it myself and oso have the help of my other poly friends...haha...this sem i gt some goals in mind :

1. improve my GPA(totally sux last sem)
2. not to get any Cs or Ds
3. train at the gym
4. get rid of those fats of mine WITHOUT using diet pills
5. spend my time with her whenever possible ^^

yup...those will be my goals for this sem...my last sem's grade was terrible and i noe y...hehe...could hav gotten a B in a module..but i heck...did nt bother to do the on9 assignments/forgt to do then panic and giv up and wait to die :P
now cannot le cos i wan a high GPA so that i can proceed to 2nd yr wifout any worries.As for not getting C&D grades i think i will have a bit of a problem as those who noe me will noe that i SUX at math and physics and if i can get a C it can consider laughable le...but then early this morning when i tok to her she gav me a goal...higher than ever...well u noe wad it is...its alrdy written in point 2 and her terms is if i do not get B or higher she wont go out wif me for....a mth? omg thats like being frigging grounded man but thats onli the case when im taking the final exams :P did not told her abt the common test breaks though...feeling guilty or lucky? u guess bah....haha...so..more stress or bigger challenge? i think this sem might be more of a challenge than stress as there will always be stress but i can handle that since i got her pic on my hp...whenever im lonely or felt abit down...i look at her pic in my hp and till now her pic has nver fail to make me smile...i couldn't help it but smile whenever i saw her sweet face smiling at me as well...u noe...no u dun obviously..im jus being lame =P

kk...time for me to slp update when i have time...chiaoz Zzzz~...

signing off :
the lamer of yr 1989 [~L-@-M-E-R~]

my door is ready to open...jus for u..<3

the feeling that i thought had died when we parted ways has rekindled again when she called me...yes...u can see it in my msn very clearly...i do not know what she think of me but i'll still say that she is my one and only...and there is no one that can replace you ...only you, my dear can make me feel this way..truly the other girls i met have not given me this special feeling...only you...<3<3<3<3<3<3<3

for those who wish to noe her name...quit dreaming...i will not compromise her in my blog for safety reasons...and i swear that if anyone who insults or say anything sensitive...i will get angry...and you dun wanna see me angry.

its like ...im just a locked door waiting for the right person who is holding the right key to open me(the door)...you will nver realli noe the true me unless u really try to understand me...i am a little bad at talking and saying out things...so wad i said may be misunderstood or redicule..but it does not matter..wad matter most is i understand myself...i noe there are those who tried to noe wad i was tinking but...to tell u the truth , there isn't much to think abt...im jus worried..too worried abt the future me...the last and only person that ask me y was i so worried and kept silent all the time and offer to listen to my worries was...her. At that time i was only thinking abt death, so i tot i shld nt told her in case she thinks i've gone bonkers! so i said nthing...couldn't open my mouth in fact...a mistake...cos i think she is just trying to open my door but i slam it shut again...haiz...my past muistakes..must learn from it...

currently she is bsy wif her exams and i noe that this exams is impt for her jus as she is impt to me. i will wait patiently for her to finsh..in the mean time..i nd to get some workout in the gym so that i can..erm...slim down? haha...hope i gt a 6 pck =X cant have high hopes..may try...but the success rate can c liao...5% xD...

i have finally written a post le...for those who have view my blog and complain abt the updates i apologise for the lateness because i was doing some cca admin and was quite bsy...now that i have written dwn some of my feelings...i hope that some day my wish will come true...

signing off :
chuah hao cai, philip

my aunt's birthday :D

i jus transfer its 'rank' to a post instead of a picture...so the quality may differ abit...