update?

my bag has gotten more and more heavier le.dunno wad i chuck in oso...maybe becos of todae's lesson bah...

basically i will sum up todae's event : morning lesson, lunch, slack, eat, home. thats about all.

today's weather is great. nice sun, nice wind. rather cloudy oso.
nthing great happen when im having lesson until i proceed for dinner.
as i walk out of ourspace, my cold body is welcomed by the sudden warmness of the outside environment.and there too, have a light breeze that gently caressed my face as i walk towards makan place
dinner had nthing much to talk abt except that i order my kaki fuyong set that i havent touched for abt 2wks.
as i walk out....i found out that the wind has gotten stronger and as i let the wind blow against as i walk towards the side gate, i look up at the sky, smiled and close my eyes....im enjoying the wind.
slp on the bus. dream of her yet again.
getting more tired easily...i wonder y.

the one love drama i watch and really liked...till now

u guess it...those who have seen my msn nick starting todae and for afew days will know wad im talking about =) the drama is call: winter sonata or 冬季戀歌 in chinese. korean name will be 겨울연가. hahaha...this is one of the most touching love K drama i watch and till todae remains the best drama in my list =D and the OSTs are very touching...nearly all the songs...touching and at the same time relaxing...love it.

did i ever mention that i love the wind? or shld i say i love the movement of air haha...cos i love the silent breeze as well. it feels great, the silent breeze brushing gently pass ur face as u walk. the strong wind that make ur hair all messed up. the wind has sometimes help me to blow away my saddness, my emoness, my troubles...wif the wind i can rewind and think back....flashbacks of my past.reliving them once again in my brain....cause they are sweet memories that i cant bring myself to forget. thats y...if any1 find me missing....dun worry im not suicidal, just look for a place where theres wind...i will most probably be there.

reading manga and watching anime has become ineffective in distracting me from u, i cant help but think of you,remember i said about being addicted to you? its true. each day without you talking to me has been torturous>< in order to try to forget this hardening feeling, i realise that i slp more often...but to no avail. cos when i slp, i dream of u again. but i know, that u r not interested in me and wad i do has been fruitless...i know! but...i cant control it, i just miss ur voice, ur attitude, ur everything. haha...i always scared that i might fall in love wif u and in order to avoid that i try to heck care everything and let the event unfold by itself. but its too late. haha.

i rmb u told me that if u dunwan others to read then dun blog. for that my dear, is not i dunwan others to read. it cos i dunwan u to read le then avoid me. cos thats the last thing i wan. i ponder long about whether to post this...u said if dunwan see can save as draft but then again i dun feel complete. >< im fickle minded. enjoy

______(fill in the blanks)

never say i love you
if u really dun care
never talk about feelings
if they aren't really there
never hold my hand
if you are going to break my heart
never say you are going to
if u dun plan to start
never look into my eyes
if all u do is lie
never say hello
if u really mean good bye
if u really mean forever
then say u will try
never say forever
cause forever makes me cry

[taken from my hp wallpaper]

funny how this is suppose to wad a girl is suppose to say to a guy...but yea....im writing this to tell a girl, especially those 1st few lines. yst has been great. its too good to be real...almost a dream, yes it must have been a dream. and i wanna praise myself for having asked the most impt question to her....or else....i might still be dreaming...for me,dreams exists to be crushed. i wanna congratulate her oso...for she is the 2nd girl i know to be this close to me besides xm. i can tell for myself that i really like her. lol...last time im scared that she know...but now, theres no more hiding le...last time when we 1st met i know i like her le...jus wondering will happen and all...yea...end up i dun even nd to confess lor....my hints are too obvious lol....then after...its like mths after i meet up wif her again =) i had tot my feelings died down le....but no...in fact, it somehow gt revived...cos i jus got the tendency to "jus be wif her" and i think she knows it! yst has been too enjoyable for me that i can forget that i should keep my distance...i confess i wanted to be close to her thats y i dun mind. the fact that she hold my hand jus means so much to me....though still thank god i ask her the y/n question and though she beat around the bush...i manage to get the meaning...hmm....i dun really feel sad....but im not happy....dun feel like crying....until now. slpt at 3am yst...dream of her and the events that happen yst....its jus too good for me to wake up...too good. too nice. too surreal.

thanks again....though ysterday's talk abt going to other places....i dun think it will happen again =) its been enjoyable.

theres 3 words i wanna say to u b4 u go home but i never manage to say it out until now.
i love you :') <3

________feelings revived___________________(feel in the blanks)

lol...dun really like to put titles cos i dunno wads my topic will be...i mean...this is a blog not an essay >.>"

this few weeks has been rather (short pause) interesting haha...1stly, i since sch start...i dun think i jubeat as much as i did during the holidays. lol, manage to survive 2 presentations. haha...1st time for me lol...*lvl up!* haha...last wk i go crash angie's friend's birthday lol...gt tricked by her to go lor...say wad " give flower nia" in the end like 11+ then leave...>.>" during the time she is...hmm....socialising...i go out and explore(since i dunno EVERYONE there) the condo. haha...took some photos of scenary and some things i find nice and photogenic. i feel really left out lor...(im not the really social-able kind) i jus more and more sian...cos after sch i feel tired le...then go jubeat while waiting for angie. my eyes and concentration lvl gt more strained. when she arrive, i sort of brighten up....did i mention she look cute that day? i gt the feeling that i wanna be wif her. cant described the actual feelings i felt. jus that crashing that party is a good thing and bad thing...good things are : i get to see angie again, indescribable feelings are found in me.bad thing : crash the party, did not socialise....leave her alone to chat wif her friends and go explore the area. note to self: do not abandon my partner lol...the rest of the story will remain in my memory =) i will end this post wif the following sentence.

and the very night...i dreamt of her.

[ps] k...i add in my title le...