....i shld just shut up....(title does not sycro wif post)

as my title said....nuf said...i talk too much, say too much, having an imaginary good response and reaction isnt good at all...it makes u sick of gambling...XP i shld jus keep quiet...i shld not care so much abt other ppl when none care for me, like i said, i have had enuf of 1-sided r/s. if i see a full stop even b4 we begin i will slowly stop.lol...for those who are reading, im jus putting my tots into words...and u will noe that my mind is always in random...

quote of the week : DO NOT love someone else when you cant love yourself, you DON'T DESERVE it

sometimes instead of blogging and writing in a diary...i wanna jus buy a tape recorder...and record my tots and life in it...then in the case where i died...or when im old i will have a collection of "short stories"
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that tot aside...im still addicted to the anime : jubei-chan season 1 and 2(final season)and whenever i see nananoha jiyu's father,nananoha sai(really sometime thinks he is shit) i cant help but think....hey c'mon...ur daughter is going to fight for a greater cause...while u, only a fcking writer that cant do wad ur daughter's 1st request for u(in season 2) the end is really touching...haha...but the best parts that i like abt the anime jubei-chan is the swordfights...and the way the main theme kicks in when jiyu transform into yagyu jubei but then the drawings of the other "less important" character in the story really sux...lol...in season 1 jiyu's dad totally snapped when he knows wads really happening...and try to escape it by saying "its alright...come back to papa...u dun have to do this anymore" my reaction when watching that part is, fck that la...cant u see wads really happening? open ur eyes and look will u...she is fcking fighting an enemy that will cause her life if she loses...u wan ur daughter to break concentration and gt slaughtered? think la...(sudden shifting to other topics) in addition to this anime, i loved the main theme and oso the OST : nagi~peace of mind~.....
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i wonder when will my common test result will be out...im having high expectations....although todae was onli wednesday...but then i wanna know if i had fail any modules...i seriously am not confident abt my engineering material...i rather study and empty my brain juice on math than learn engineering materials...seriously...>.> but then...who ask me to fail that module...gotta retake lor...not that i LIKE retaking ok...I HATE IT......repeating 1 sem is SHIT....its like repeating sec 3....tmd...this sem exam i SWEAR i am going to aim an A if not a B...cb...im not taking a repeat onli to gt a D again...i seem to recall some1 saying abt being a 'fake' yr3 wont noe abt their stress of the 'actual' yr3, hey fck it ok...if i wan to think of it nicely, its jus 3.5 yrs, an extra bloody 6mths...and im alrdy fcking piss abt it liao...
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i feel that i am very kiam pah sometimes....really....i will be frank with all of u here....i can be ur friend for 1 day and turn enemy the nxt day....i wont giv u warning de...if u hit onto my live wire, be prep to gt shock and oso i have sudden mood swing and turn really grumpy...i would feel that u are an irritant if u ask too much, if u act like an idiot too much, if im confuse liao and u add more stress. when im thinking and JUST about to write(i tend to forgt wad im writing if im going to write and some idiot break my concentration)...and when i do that...i will snap back....ppl who try to ask me wads wrong will gt bitten oso...cos i wan to be left alone of awhile...when im alright..i will join u guys again...im sure those who try to ask me wads wrong got the reply" nthing! and dun touch me!" that is my response...i will treat u like no other stranger...when im really moody, touch me and u feel my wrath...and i dun care who it is...in fact my bro has the most exp. (shld i put haha?) then sometimes i will feel like provoking ppl to gt angry...and try to cool them down again...i cant explain my actions for this...(grab attention mayb?hmm...)and sometimes i jus ran out of topic to talk...and u stone i stone...lol...im a loner that wans company but sometimes dun wan any of it....and feel that being alone is much btr...and sometimes tot that having a gf or a wife is a good thing...(i wann make it clear...i do not think gtting a gf is cool, i think gtting a gf is a blessing)sometimes i whld gt attached to some1 and mistake her "guan xing" for affection....thats y...if i cant make out the diff between those 2...its btr to be alone...and oso rmb my quote of the week haha...
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i find that emo songs are nice...dun u think? they have feelings in them...cos the singers really put their heart into it to sing it and thus, u can feel their pain, sadness and helplessness...an easy example will be guang liang's song , tong hua. i let a tear flow out of my eyes when watching that mv.
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i truly feel that girls are 'untouchables' this is the 2nd time some girl said "dun touch me!" if its a comics strip, my face will have the stun face and the phrase "dun touch me!"will fill the entire dream bubble. after all, they ARE princesses, there is no hag or witch or anything...there is however bitches...and i am jus a filthy nobody...i do not belong to any1 and no1 belong to me...i can onli watch and play along wif the others.
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tots appear and disappear in my mind everytime....wad was i going to say again?.....oh yea...sometimes playing games, reading manga too much as more or less affected me oso...sometimes i really feel that i would like to do shunpo like how those shinigami do in bleach...if thats the case..wads 2.4km man haha...and oso i wanna wield not jus a blade...i wanna learn double blade...high speed fighting...quick reaction...in order to train my body to run faster i PLAN to buy weights to strap onto my ankle and wrist. and starts to walk...then jog...then run...then dash....my plan is simple : pass 2.4 wif weights and you break ur timing when ur running the actual test without those weights haha...ohoh...on a side note...im still very crazy over learning tai-chi, esp those of mt. wudang. and i thnk that by integrating tai-chi wif IpMun's way of boxing...it is possible to whack the shit out of a single person at the same time allowing the person to atk u 1st...
fight hard wif soft
counter the fast wif slow
allow the energy to pass thru you and u-turn back to the opponent...added wif ur own strength
its very much like aikido but tai-chi is a very slow moving type of martial arts...it teaches the concept of peace of mind,body and soul, it requires concentrations and determination...never to fight is the greatest fight of all....ever wonder y i speak so much of it but never join any tai-chi classes? its cos sg's tai-chi dun really teach u tai-chi...i wanna learn tai-chi whereby i can use it for def. not for recreation...and i really wanna test tai-chi out wif aikido....in terms of fatality..aikido is of cos has the upper hand...but in terms of def and reflex...i think tai-chi is superior....when 2 defensive type martial arts fight, who will prevail? i will still support tai-chi
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wanna slp liao...if not tml i sure "die" <3 jubei-chan's main theme nites all ^^
in a quick note : sry, jessi, im really just trying to make u angry...no other intention other than that...if u find me lame...hey...im not the lamerof1989 for nthing ok/? :P