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im laughing at my own stupidity...to think that ppl around may actually care if i go the extra mile...if i act the idiot...HAHAHAHA....alas...i realise im not acting the idiot...u all are abts. RIGHT I AM THE BLOODY IDIOT.....

hahaha...why have i gotten so emo? ppl may asked...i am jus emo la...simple....and i dun like telling u wad happen oso...not becos i dun trust u, not becos i dun like u but becos i dun feel the need to let u know....i always wanted to say nobody knows wad im feeling right now...thats true cos i never tell any1 wad im really feeling right now.......this post is triggered by something that happen at work...apparently my boss is right...i am like the cow in a china shop....except that i dun dmg the china products...i dmg the ppl in the shop.....reach shop at 1.50pm....when im suppose to be there at 1.30pm....gt a scolding from boss...expected...then while arranging the tubs i accidentally lost balance of the tubs and 1 of the tub fell onto my colleague's leg....open shop....did afew really stupid things that i cant recall...closing shop....nthing reallly happens...when going home...one of the my working colleague who is working todae as his last days...said " in the future how sia....i see no potential ones in the shop leh...all not hardworking one..." i was walking infront of them...as i hear them talk abt the others...i feel left out...really left out...its their world and mine own...we dun talk much oso...i dun really get into serious talking when im working...they are just my working colleagues...nthing more nthing less....get along well wif them to avoid trouble....okok...back to topic...when they talk abt it...i rmb something this working colleague of mine told me earlier that day "eh...philip.....u work u how long le...still dunno?" i felt dumb and retarded...
-another flashback-
boss:"eh.....wad u doing?! 1st time coming to work ar?!"
those are jus pieces of my imcompetence.....i cant rmb things well...i cant do things fast...so wad am i? ans: some1 expendable...i can jus quit todae and tml no 1 will care to ask y haha...some might even say "he shld have left long ago"...u no nd to say...i noe it all...im thinking abt this and that that im mentally exhausted....i dun feel like going to sch liao...jus let me slp...for 15hrs or 1 day...